Day Sixteen of IVF Cycle
Some days you really have to laugh at yourself, or you might just cry.
I have a belly ache!
And the bit you just have to laugh at is the fact that i dont know what kind of belly ache it is! Is it an ivf related belly ache? should i be concerned? Am i just hungry, no no i just ate... Do i need to vomit? no, dont think so... Do i need to poo? Nope done that already...
There have been so many different pains this week i just dont know which is which! And if i dont laugh at myself i really am going to cry..
Funny story: On tuesday night my ovaries were hurting so much that when i pee'd i had to hold onto the walls, at one point i even yelped in pain and my husband came running thinking i had fallen into the loo!
Funny story: On wednesday i couldnt even stand up straight and yet there i was trying to cook myself dinner...
And on the topic of funny stories and wednesdays - about a year ago i got my appendix out, you may think this is somewhat unrelated of IVF - but just give me a moment... Getting my appendix out was the first time i can remember going under anesthetic and to that date probably the most pain i had ever been in, not any more.
Anyway so nobody REALLY knows how they are going to act under anesthetic, nor do they know how they are going to act as they come out of it. After my appendix was removed and i came too, "apparently" i threw something at the nurse, yelled, ripped my oxygen mask off, panicked, and then the next thing i remember was being in the ward yelling again and pulling my nose oxygen out. So i was told the next day that after anesthetic i dont recover well... So be it.... a funny story....
Now do you think i remembered this when i was asked the first time i was sedated for the EPU? nooope, and much to everyone's amazement it took my fit and healthy body a good 1.5 hours to recover from a 15 minute procedure. Annnnd the second time i went in for the EPU - did i remember this - NOPE of course not!
For those of you who dont know me (everyone) i am a firm believer of mind over matter, it is never a matter of 'can't' it is a matter of 'wont'. So after my VERY slow recovery on the first EPU i was determined to have a fast recovery - mind over matter, i can do this!
So i go in, the last thing i remember was the plastic smell of the mask, and then it was 9.38am and the nurse was checking on me. Right - i can do this! Speedy recovery! Hmm i'm thirsty, can i have a glass of water - no - not allowed. What about pain relief (the pain after is like the worst menstral cramp EVER) - no - not until i wake up a bit more. 9.55am - water? nope, pain relief? nope. 10.10am ahhh pain relief, i'll be set after this! 10.30am here we go, needle in arm coming out... Nurse helps me up, am i okay? Yes little woosy but mind over matter mind over matter, i can do this! Got my shorts and shirt on thongs on, walked halfway out the door - BAM - im out (apparently!)
10.45am back in the recovery bed, HUMPH. 11.05, im okay, i'm okay... Aparently not, another nurse has come to check out the situation, now i have the blood pressure thing and heart rate thing attached to me, something is beeping, oh look and now i have a friend to join me in recovery... 11.15 i have now figured out that the thing beeps if it goes below 90... mind over matter, mind over matter, if you stay above 90 you can go home.... 99..... 90...83 beep beep beep.... humph... other lady is now chatting away to nurse telling how it is her last time to do an epu and if it doesnt work she is out - oh i hope it works for her.... 95...87... beep beep beep, bloody hell... how are you feeling? im okay - can i go? not yet love, you need a bit more colour, low blood pressure - you passed out on me before you know... OPPS! 11.30 - nurse comes back - i'm just going to take this lady back to the clinic, then i will come and take you back okay? out loud yes, in my head - NO - NOT FRIGGIN OKAY! ERRRKKKK i'm young, fit, healthy, and i have the will power of an energizer bunny! ARGGG that 30 something lady, just went in, had pre-procedure consult, had procedure, recovered, and went back to the clinic, while i was just recovering! Bloody hell.... you just have to laugh dont you...
Goes to show two things...
- No matter how fit or healthy you are, sometimes your body just reacts in its own manner, each person is different. and,
- Sometimes it isnt a matter of mind over matter, sometimes it just takes time...
