Day Two – FET Cycle
FET – Frozen Embryo Transfer
Today i am myself… A happy, bubbly, excitable, caffeine addicted, fit and healthy lady…maybe…(a lady i mean)
But BEWARE i’m not sure it is going to last long… Not because i dont like being myself, and not because i am depressed about the failed IVF no no no… Quite the opposite… Because i start on my new hormone replacement therapy tonight…
And this time it is going to work! I can feel it… Well not really, but i have decided that the negative vibes are bad, and the let down is the same whether i tell myself it hasnt worked, or whether i believe that it has, so go the positive vibes!
Okay so back on topic… Hormones, hormone replacement therapy… I guess this is because normally i am hormoneless… LOL no no it is because i dont have a regular cycle, and i am NOT waiting for something that may or may not happen, we want to get this show on the road!
The next 11 days will consist of oestrogen in the form of a nice little tablet – Progynova 2mg – 3 times a day, followed by a scan, then if all goes to plan and the oestrogen grows my lining enough, i will continue the oestrogen and being on progesterone. The little information sheet here says that i will continue on BOTH of these hormones untill the positive pregnancy test, and then througout the first trimester. (Postive thinking, positive thinking)
At this point in time my FET will be on Novemeber 9… still the AWFUL wait… but at least there is not going to be any physical pain involved this time… maybe some weight gain, maybe some more pimples, maybe some emotions, my best friend ‘side effects’ is deffinatly going to make an appearance… But i can run it all away 
And at the end of it I WILL BE PREGNANT… and i did something really really really really bad…. I bought a pink stuffed bear… Hope i havent double jinxed myself! (1 – pregnancy, 2 – girl)
Oh and i forgot to mention, i have decided only to defrost one. I am scared that if i put two back in i will have twins, and i was speaking to the nurse today, and there are just way to many risks… I want to fall pregnant and make it through the 40 weeks… I CAN do this! Well we can, but i refer to it as i because my wonderful husband has already done his bit, and – you know – the male partners job in the IVF process is SOOOO difficult and painful – note the SARCASM! I actually think he is out the back now doing cartwheels, because he wont have to visit the clinic at all this time!
So thats all:
RAMBLINGS COMPLETE!
CRAZY LADY OUT…
“To love is to risk not being loved in return, to HOPE is to risk pain, to try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing and to get nothing in return.” Anon
