Day 23 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily, Progresterone Crione 8% 1x am + 2 x progesterone pessaries pm
As i am standing in the lift all i can think is – I’ve done this twice before, so why is it so scary? why am i so nervous?
Now as i wait and write the nervous bubbles seem to ease and all i can think is – did i drink enough water? There are two kids here playing, one maybe a year old, the other about four, playing with a ball – it is so cute – i pray that this will be me in a year, i pray that my miracle will happen this time. I hope that this back pain is a result of me ‘over working’ my butt muscles and not hormonal.
This whole FET thing is so unnerving – like will the embie make it? Of course it will! Will the procedure go to plan? Of course! So why am i so scared? And why did the nervous bubbles just return? And why oh why is my back still hurting? And does Friday the 13th really mean anything? Where did that last comment come from?
OMG now i feel sick, and is that – no it couldnt be… Do my ovaries hurt now?… Am i cramping? WTF? Why am i over analysing everything?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
FOCUS – JUST FOCUS
Breathing in… Breathing out…
Maybe i should drink another glass of water…
Did i transfer enough money….
I’m just going to go back to waiting now…
STOP THINKING!
Oh the scientist just called my name…
Back again, now i am watching the mother read to the child, will i be a good mother anyway? Maybe i should grab a water? STOP THINKING – FOCUS focus. So okay where did i just go, thats right i just saw the scientist. IT DEFROSTED OK YEY! They look a lot different to the fresh ones, but she said that was because all the cells were dehydrated or something like that, i asked if it was good, and she said yes… here’s to hoping!
OMG now i really gotto pee 
lucky i didnt have that extra glass. I am so happy, this is going to work! Ohohoh they even “Hatched” it – bye bye $325 – oh well so worth it…
Still waiting, waiting waiting waiting. There is a couple next to me, she is on her phone, i wonder if she is on twitter, i wonder if she is one of my ‘friends’ you so wouldnt know… interesting, he just told her to put the phone down and talk – what should we talk about? I dont know, what do you want to talk about, i dont know you wanted to talk.. ARGH i really want to tell them to just talk! ARRRRGGGHHHH I GOTTO GO PEE PEE!!!!!!
Ohohohoh Doctor is here!
Transfer done, waiting for nurse, dont know what to talk about couple gone (thank god, i wasnt sure they would ever find something to talk about!) Doctor said all went well, 5 people saw my jinjar, have emptied my bladder, all is right with the world!
Waiting Waiting, ahhh hello my favorite nurse! YEY!
Hmm back from the nurse now – just got the pessaries… not used to these, i have to lay down for at least half an hour after inserting. The nurse suggested waking an hour before you have to get up, put one in and go back to bed, then put two in before bed at night… Just thinking about that… HOW THE HELL DO YOU PUT TWO IN?!?!?!?! I guess i will figure that out once i have finished typing this post… Ill have to get back to you on that one!
So this is it. Third time lucky on Friday the 13th…? Blood test is on the 25 November, let the 2ww begin (she says with baited breath)
Oh and FYI – the ‘older’ receptionist said too me on the way out (and i quote) “it will happen when you least expect it” WTF – it’s IVF love! You work at a clinic, remember! I will expect it to work or not to work on 25 November, unless ofcourse before then i somehow have a massive brain fart and completely forget who i am and what i have been doing for the past year! ARGH, get your words right lasy… A simple good luck would have saficed 
“Hope – it is the dandelion seed you just wished upon”
