Day 14 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily
You know when you try so hard, do all that you possibly can, but no matter how hard you try, no matter what angle you try to take, it seems in vein?
That was today.
It almost seems like that was yesterday as well, and maybe it will be what tomorrow brings?
I was hoping today would be more inspirational, that i would find my insight and bring to you something funny and worthwhile, something that would help others through their rough patches. Something that would inspire all those hurting to go on, that there is purpose and that there is something worth waking for.
But, alas, i have been defeated by the hormones…
It seems more often than not when going through the vicious cycles of IVF and infertility negativity has a way of raising to the surface and taking what little happiness you had left….
And the only way i can describe to you how i feel today is… Empty
It seems that there used to be more words for how i was feeling, and that there used to be a song that could describe my every mood. I used to be able to express how i was feeling in someway or another… But right now i just feel empty.
There are things that make me happy for a minute or two, make me smile, and things that make me cry the tears that were dwelling inside, there are few words that can make me feel better, but there are also the thoughts that keep making me sad. These feelings inside, i keep finding them hard to describe…
It is like a pain that has no end, a hurt that goes so deep inside no doctor could possibly understand, nor attempt to fix it
This emptiness, this negativity… It shows itself, takes over and makes you feel like yesterday, today and tomorrow are all in vein…
“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.” Lance Armstrong
