Day 34 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily, Progesterone pessaries 3x daily
The anticipation is so overwhelming… It is all i can think about, i have tried and tried and tried to think of something else, ANYTHING else, but i cant!
I am excited more than anything, but im also nervous… Oh God, I have been thinking about everything today….I havent had bad cramps – great! I have had back pain – what does that mean? Im feeling positive – great again! But my boobs dont hurt – are they meant to yet? My ovaries still have some pain – again does that mean anything? Oh God oh God oh golly golly gosh.. What am i going to do with myself?
When i got home, DH asked “any cramps” i was like “no” then there was that cheeky little smile that i love so much, he is as excited as i am! He even asked if i can pee on a stick!
I have no idea how i am going to make it to tomorrow, and all this excitement – what if its negative? Oh i dont know! I dont remember being this excited the first time, or this nervous, or even filled with half as much anticipation… I will get there, I know i will get there… I just dont think i will sleep any!
And though all these emotions i know that tomorrow is going to come and quickly go, and no matter the outcome, i have told myself it is going to be okay…
“Oh yes I am wise, but it’s wisdom born of pain, yes, I’ve paid the price, but look how much I gained, if I have to, I can do anything, I am strong, I am invincible, I am woman!” Helen Reddy
