Day 34 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily, Progesterone pessaries 3x daily
The anticipation is so overwhelming... It is all i can think about, i have tried and tried and tried to think of something else, ANYTHING else, but i cant!
I am excited more than anything, but im also nervous... Oh God, I have been thinking about everything today....I havent had bad cramps - great! I have had back pain - what does that mean? Im feeling positive - great again! But my boobs dont hurt - are they meant to yet? My ovaries still have some pain - again does that mean anything? Oh God oh God oh golly golly gosh.. What am i going to do with myself?
When i got home, DH asked "any cramps" i was like "no" then there was that cheeky little smile that i love so much, he is as excited as i am! He even asked if i can pee on a stick!
I have no idea how i am going to make it to tomorrow, and all this excitement - what if its negative? Oh i dont know! I dont remember being this excited the first time, or this nervous, or even filled with half as much anticipation... I will get there, I know i will get there... I just dont think i will sleep any!
And though all these emotions i know that tomorrow is going to come and quickly go, and no matter the outcome, i have told myself it is going to be okay...
"Oh yes I am wise, but it's wisdom born of pain, yes, I've paid the price, but look how much I gained, if I have to, I can do anything, I am strong, I am invincible, I am woman!" Helen Reddy
