Day 33 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily, Progesterone pessaries 3x daily
You know the times when all you want to do is sleep? Not because you are tired, but because you want to escape.
This afternoon, i just wanted to fall asleep and dream of things not pregnancy or trying to conceive related, i needed an escape. But i couldnt sleep. I kept waking up.
I feel tired enough to sleep, but the anxiety seems to be taking over...
Weird cramps are worrying me, i am analysing everything, i cant help it, and the more i try to relax the more i get anxious.
I keep repeating, what will be will be, there is nothing i can do now, no matter what happens i will survive.
But i thought i had this gut feeling, that this was the one. I thought that i had the instinct and positivity about this being it, but as d day gets closer, and the more i think about it, i dont know, i just dont know.
I want so bad for this to be it, i want so bad to be pregnant with our child, not only for my sake but for my husbands too, he needs this too. We both want this so much, and for him, he is the one that has to be strong no matter what, so it is harder for him.
I still hope for the best, i havent given up, there is still a glimmer of hope and faith that this could be it...
It would just be easier to get through the next three days, if these cramps, weird pains, or whatever tricks my mind is playing on me, would just go away...
Please.
“You cannot escape the responsibility of tomorrow by evading it today.” Abraham Lincoln
