Day 17 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily

This morning i tried something new.

I was nervous yes, maybe even a little bit hesitant, but as we all know i am a strong and stubborn girl, and my mind was set.

No this was not something that had never been done before, and no it was no where near as scary as facing IVF or infertility, but it was something that i didnt know what to expect at all, something completely different for me.

Yes i am talking about my acupuncture appointment this morning.

I had decided that i would not drive as i often feel very tired after a massage, and i had been told that i may feel similar with this.  So DH drove, we got lost, and i arrived feeling very stressed, flustered, and busting to pee. Nice start!

So after relieving myself and filling in the forms, i hoped on the bed, my heart pounding, still not sure what to expect…

To my amazement, and i am not lying at all, i felt nothing! No joke, nothing, could not feel a thing.  Through out the next five minutes the acupuncturist asked me questions about my lifestyle and diet, then spent the next five minutes giving me advice as to what to change and why.

He explained every step of the process, it was fantastic! He only put a few needles in my legs and toes, and one in my hand, he was starting out small – to see how i would go.  He also heated the needles up, and left two in my ear, one for my uterus, and one for my kidneys.

It was so facinating, i am not normally a girl of alternate medicine, but this was just amazing!  Within five minutes i was feeling so relaxed, not sleepy, just content.

The acupuncturist gave me some fantastic diet advise – he suggested a zinc supplement, plus trying soy milk – apparently soy milk contains oestrogen – or helps with that somehow – and that is one thing i need at the moment.  He also mentioned that the digestive system needs to be healthy…?  So to create healthier kidneys and spleen i am to not have salads for dinner – nothing raw – and switch to stirfrys or steamed veggies -  I CAN DO THAT! I will do anything at this point!

So the plan is

1. Hot tap water with lemon in the am
2. Steamed vegies – no raw food in the pm
3. Zinc supplement
4. Soy milk
5. No bare feet on the tiles (he said too cold, have to keep body temp at a good level)
6. Before FET heat pack on my back
7. Limit exercise after wednesday, so body is relaxed

I can do this!  I even made another appointment for next saturday.  This is GOING to work!  This has to work, i have put on my confident boots, i am looking after myself, and i am going to do this.

For some reason i feel so empowered – like the time has come for me to take control of this situation, to throw negativity and self doubt out the window, to take all the advise i have been given, put it into practice, and just BELIEVE, TRUST, and have enough FAITH to get me through the next three weeks…

On another note while i was lying there with needles in me, all i could think was… I cant believe it is day 17 already! That in itself is nearly a 3ww!

Isnt it weird how on one hand time seems to take forever, i feel a strong sense of dread having to face the 2ww, yet on the other hand i know the time will fly by so quickly?  This year is a complete puzzle to me, i can hardly believe a year has gone by, it is november already! Yet it also seems that i have been wanting and waiting for the days to go by wishing them away so quickly?

I still cant believe that it is day 17 already…

And ill tell you a little secret…

Today in my head i thought… August…

Fingers crossed and trust in the Lord.

“Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself… ‘How did I get through all of that?” Anon

Day 16 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily, after a quick scan this morning the doctor has decided to book the FET in for Friday the 13th of November… Is that a bad omen?

So now to my frustration i face a 3 week wait, which at the moment to me seems awfully dawnting.  Progesterone begins on monday, 3 times daily, and i get to continue with the oestrogen 3x daily indefinitely – so i’m warning you now – i may just be a little on the crazy side over the next few weeks! (Stop laughing, i know you think i am already crazy!)

Anyway, I wrote this a little while ago and i found it today and re-read it, somehow it gave me a little hope for the future, and maybe a little inspiration to get me through my 3ww!

We may laugh and we may cry, we may wish this wasnt us, we may wish we wernt where we are today, we may pray for a new reality, we may wish to rise from this nightmare…

But if all our dreams became reality, if this wasnt our life, if we woke from this bad dream…

Wouldnt there simply be another nightmare to face?

And isnt it the hardship and the turmoil that we face what makes us who we are?

Is it this that makes each and every moment more fulfilling, isnt it this that makes the simple pleasures exactly that – worth waking for?

Isnt it the hardship we face that makes us stronger?  That builds our faith, our friendships, our love, gives us hope, makes there something to live for, aspire to, and make us a better person for surviving?

Star light, star bright, first star i see tonight, i wish i may i wish i might, i wish upon the first star i see tonight..

I wish that tomorrow the sun will rise and still be so beautiful, that peace within will come to all those i love, and that again the sun will set and i will be a better person for living through this turmoil.

“Without struggle, without hardship and without adversity we would not be able to appreciate the small things this life has to offer”

Day 15 FET Cycle -Progynova 2mg 3x daily

Okay, so this happens alot – i am certainly no stranger to it… and again it is one of those things that is not just limited to IVF, IUI’s or anything infertility related…

GOGGLING

Now i have no real idea (and yes, yes i did Google it) but i would suggest that if you had said fifteen years ago – look on Google, you probably would have had some weird looks… But now as we reach 2010 it seems that Google has taken on many roles, including taking over the role of nurse and doctor!

Have you ever sat there typed in a subject, hit search, not liked the information, typed in the same subject but with different wording, hit search again… Only to find the same information… then you do it again, and again and again, each time changing the words ever so slightly so that eventually you find some information somewhere that is what you wanted to hear? Dont lie you know you have…

Call me crazy, but i think when we all do this we are all looking for a little bit of hope, searching for someone somewhere to have written something that will say – yes these symptoms that you are having ARE pregnancy related – you ARE pregnant… But sadly most of the time Google just provides portals to nightmarish information which was really the last thing you wanted to read, see, or hear about.

I Googled today…

I tried to find out success rates of FET cycles… or that they were higher than IVF cycles, or that someone else out there had lining that wasnt growing as fast as ‘usual’…

Guess what i found?

LOWER SUCCESS RATES!

Step away girly, raise your fingers, move your chair back, and step away from Google…

S-T-E-P A-W-A-Y

Nothing good ever comes from goggling symptoms, or searching for answers… All you will find is a jumble of misconstrued information provided by hundreds of thousands of different people from all warps of time…

And plus everyone is different, some lady from 1999 does not have all the answers for you!

Do me a favor… Call the nurse – that’s their job…

“Good habits result from resisting temptation” Ancient Proverb