100 days ago i began to write, 100 days ago i thought i would just be writing for myself, writing to express my emotions and writing to release some of my fears from my heart…
As the days went by and the time ticked on and as the words emerged, i never imagined that 100 days later i would have made over 100 new friends, i never imagined that i would have so many new people in my life who care SO much for me that they would stay awake just to see my news. I never imagined that there were so many people out there who could care so much about a stranger.
When you least expect it you will meet a stranger that will change your life forever…
I dont know what you look like, i dont know alot of your names, i dont know what you do and i dont know anything about your lives, your past nor your present, but i do know that you are my friends. I know that now matter what happens, you care, and i know that no matter what happens, you will be there for me, and i know that no matter what happens i will always know where to find you – and for that, thank you….
I have said this before to other people, but today, today i mean it from the deep depths of my heart, there will never be enough words to say what i need to say, never enough for you to know jsut what you mean to me, never enough to express how i really feel.
For the times when you stayed awake to see my news – thank you. For the times when you waited, your hearts beating as fast as mine – thank you. For the times when you simply gave me a *HUG* a *MWAH* a :p and even a
– thank you. Thank you for the past 100 days, for your support, for cheering me along when i needed it most, for praying for me when i thought i had lost God, for crossing your fingers and toes for me, thank you. And thank you for the comments that always made me cry…
I wish there was another word for thank you, because i still need to say thank you for just being you, and for just being there for me when i thought i was alone. Without you, without the experiences i have faced over the past 100 days, i would surely not know where i was headed, what to expect, and i would surely not be as at peace with my situation as i am today.
I will not lie, i am scared, i dont know where i am headed, there are no final answers as i had hoped… But i know that i have friends, friends that no matter what happens, no matter where my journey continues to, no matter what my life throws at me next, you will always be there reading and writing comments, helping me through the challenges.
The worst year of my life is now over, and again i say – i wouldnt change it for the earth.
I sit here and i welcome in 2010 with open arms knowing that i have strangers in my life who will be with me holding my hand chasing my miracle each and every day with me.
Once again from the bottom of my heart – thank you.
Love always Cheryl, the mother that may never be…

















