Day fivteen of the final full IVF cycle in our quest to chase our little miracle – I pre wrote this post, and as i am tired and in a little pain, and mostly just frustrated tonight, i am going to use it… Tomorrow is egg pick up, the last one… Pray for me… and help me with what to do!!
What to do what to do oh what on earth to do?!
And before you ask, yes husband and i have chatted, yes i have spoken to the nurses and yes, yes i have spoken with the doctor…
What is my dilemma you ask?
One or two, one or two, two or one, one or two?
Embryo’s that is…
So the first time we were only allowed to transfer one, and i fell pregnant… Shame that didnt work out, i wouldnt be having this dilemma!
The second time, two… and ummm, that didnt even work before it even didnt work…
The third time, one… again nothin…
So what this time?
Last time we transferred only one because i am scared of my body coping with two babies, as i have lupus and i already swell beyond comfort, and i’m not sure about having to have a cesarean… if i fell pregnant id rather do the natural thing…
*sigh*
If i fall pregnant…
But if you put two back in then is there a higher chance of falling pregnant with one?
I think i know the answer, i think i know what i will do, but i do it because i am scared, and i do it becuase i worry too much…
I really really want this to work, and i just dont know, i just dont know, i dont know anymore…
*sigh*
“People say I’m indecisive, but I don’t know about that.” George Bush
