Day ten of the final full IVF cycle in our quest to chase our little miracle - 125 iu’s FSH plus Orgalutran injection
Okay – funny story… its about time for one…
So last thursday night husband and i went out for dinner with the inlaws and family, it was my sister in laws birthday. Unbeknown to me, my husbands aunt, uncle and cousin came, not that that was a problem, they are a lovely family…
My husbands cousin is 29 weeks pregnant, again not a problem…
So we get to ordering dinner, which with the inlaws in itself is a funny story… imagine 12 people all taking to a little Chinese lady at once, the very little english speaking Chinese lady takes the order… then 6 people leave the table, the other six move to the other end of the table, the first 6 return to the table, obviously sitting in different positions, then the chinese lady returns to confirm the order and is quite confused as everyone has changed seats… guess you had to be there!
Anyway so my husbands cousin get to ordering pork in some sort of sauce, the little Chinese lady, asks if she would like pork or beef, she doesnt know, then husbands aunt says “are you allowed to eat pork?” cousin “oh i dont know” uncle “i dont know” my mother in law, and husbands aunt then turn to me and give me the look that says “well can she eat pork?” So what do i do? without even thinking, and i am not even sure if anyone heard me (apart from my sister in law) said “how should i know? i cant even get pregnant!” ….
ummm my sister in law turns my way and says my name in that hi pitch tone that means i over stepped the line… ekkkk silence……
DOH! – think i said the wrong thing.. and maybe its not such a funny story, it was at the time, im thinking it was one of those, had to be there moments…?
Anyway it just got me thinking tonight…
TOP TEN AWKWARD INFERTILITY MOMENTS SO FAR!
- Blurting out what you really think in the middle of a restaurant
- Sitting, no sorry wriggling, in front of a scientist who so polity asks “is your bladder a little too full love?”
- Blurting out in the middle of the office “ahhh my ovaries” and yes yes it does raise questions…
- Grabbing your pessaries out of the fridge only to be asked by an 8 year old “what is that?” ummm they are ummm… gotto go!
- In the midst of showing the family your blog, accidentally ending up on the page that boldly talks about baby dancing
- And on the subject of baby dancing… having to tell husband that he must ‘ off load’ because the doctor says so…
- Spontaneous crying in the middle of a monday morning meeting, yes yes i did cry in front of the entire sales staff!
- Telling, no no assuring, the nurse that you are fine after the egg pick up, getting dressed and then yup you guessed it… passing out
- Standing in the city car park elevator with your cooler bag full of hormones, and then another lady runs into the elevator with the same coloured cooler bag… the silence is broken with “egg pick up today” “me too”… what the hell do you say to that?!
- Hmmm awkward awkward awkward… ah yes, how could i forget? The way people look at you when you goo and gaa over new babies, you know what they are thinking, they know you know what they are thinking… and then you say ‘i want one’…
Laugh at yourself and at life. Not in the spirit of derision or whining self-pity, but as a remedy, a miracle drug, that will ease your pain, cure your depression, and help you to put in perspective that seemingly terrible defeat and worry with laughter at your predicaments, thus freeing your mind to think clearly toward the solution that is certain to come. Never take yourself too seriously. Og Mandino
