Limbo Land Day Thirteen
To day i witnessed a miracle and a half, and once more my faith has been restored.
I know its sad to say that i needed my faith to be restored, but sometimes, you need to see something that makes you believe, to have hope once more, something that makes you smile uncontrollably – even if its just for one second… Sometimes you just need to see love to know inside of you that sometimes things can really work out.
Today i saw a life born into the arms of two loving parents. I saw someone give all they have into giving life to a child, and even now it makes me cry and smile all at the same time.
I cant express to you how much gratitude i have for being able to witness such a miracle, and it came just when i needed it most of all… Some would think that i may feel jealous or envious, as i may never be able to experience such a miracle myself… But im not, there is no part of me that felt anything but overwhelming happiness and excitement for what i experienced, and the life that i will be a part of as long as i am on this earth.
I meet a miracle this morning at 11.12am – thirty five minutes earlier than i predicted. Charlie Jason Angell is the most perfect little Angell who belongs to the two most deserving Angells i know. And while all that was happening, this morning at 9.30am I also saw what could be a miracle, what i hope to be a miracle… I saw a void in my uterus… a void that could possibly grow into a miracle of my own.
I know babies are born every minute of everyday, and for most people, not deserving enough to call a miracle, but if they knew the struggles some women go through, if they sore what it takes to make a baby, if they spent the day with me… They would surely realize just how much life is a wonder…
From a void to a little baby…. Amazing, magical and just the most splendid feeling on this earth… How on earth can you not believe in a higher power, in miracles, in all that the Lord has to offer, once you know that some cells, a microscopic ball of cells, a void in a uterus… can grow into a little life… Tell me now not to believe…
A new baby is like the beginning of all things-wonder, hope, a dream of possibilities. Eda J. Le Shan
