Eleven Weeks, two days. Day 81 in the quest to chase our little miracle
To be honest i have a weee lil bit of a temper… My sister and i call it the “Bowen trait” and we have always said that any man that can put up with a Bowen is a keeper, and well we have both found our keepers… And after last night i am not sure my keeper really knew what he was in for when he said “I do”!
It is a fact that sometimes my frustrations get the better of me and i will just get so angry and overwhelmed and something i am doing or a situation that i have put myself into that i just have to stomp or yell it out…
And last night i shocked myself, because for the first time in my pregnancy i got all worked up and frustrated, and i honestly couldnt help it! I tried not to get upset, i tried to be calm, but i couldnt, i just got so annoyed at the situation – and it really started worrying me.
This couldnt have been good for lil george, getting so worked up inside? I asked myself how do i stop? And last night i did something i dont usually do. I gave up. I shut my computer, got a bowl of ice-cream, and gave up… I went to bed without a solution. I have NEVER done that in my life! I always go to be with solutions, and i always finish what i am doing, and i never emotional eat… But i did.
I think last night this was a wise decision, but i dont want to be the person who gives up… I want to conquer and succeed! I want to find a solution to my challenges.
So my question this morning is not how to avoid the frustration, because we all know that is impossible, it is how on earth do i stop myself getting so worked up and find a solution that is not giving in? How do i control the uncontrollable? How do i realise i am in the middle of a situation that can only be solved when i am calm?
I need to be the one that succeeds, but now i need to be the one that doesnt get so frustrated and angry first…
Our frustration is greater when we have much and want more than when we have nothing and want some. We are less dissatisfied when we lack many things than when we seem to lack but one thing. Eric Hoffer
