Twelve weeks. Day 86 in the quest to chase our little miracle
Something i once thought was just a dream, is now my reality. I could have never imagined the emotions i felt today, i never thought that i would have had the chance to feel this way, and for a long time i never thought that this reality would be my reality.
Today the saying “May all your dreams become reality” meant something to me. Today i saw two arms, two legs, i saw a beautiful face, and i heard the heart beat of a child that 7 short weeks ago may not have been mine.
My heart broke today in happiness, and while i sat there in the room looking at the screen i remembered what i went through to get here, i remembered the days where i didnt know, and all i could do was pray, i remembered the hopelessness, the hurt, the confusion, the pain that i went through last year, everything rushed through me and it was all i could do but to stop myself falling to the floor in tears of joy.
I went to hell last year, i lost myself, i lost hope, i had given up, but as hard as it was i kept my faith and i prayed for a miracle, and today i truly felt like i had seen a miracle. I witnessed a life move inside of me, i saw my child, and suddenly the hell i walked though to get here was worth it.
No matter how hard it was, and no matter how much i went through, i wouldnt change it. I learned the preciousness of life and i learned that hopelessness builds faith, and that sometimes faith is all you have to hold onto.
I chased a miracle, and today i saw a 5.41cm miracle, i meet my george, who i just cant wait to hold and treasure and tell that i love with every ounce of my being.
We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness.
