Fourteen Weeks. Day 100 in the quest to chase our little miracle
100 days ago i made a choice to do one final cycle. I wrote on my white board in permanent marker - "when the world shouts give up, hope whispers one more time" And we gave it one more time.
I honestly hoped for a miracle but i told my heart i wouldnt let myself believe it, i told myself that i wouldnt let myself dream and i told myself i wouldnt break down.
But i did.
I hoped like hell, i cried until there were no more tears left, i begged and i pleaded with the Lord, screamed in pain and i cried some more. I wanted this more than anything else, and i wanted my one last chance to be it.
100 days ago i thought that i would have an answer 68 days ago - 100 days ago i thought that i would no longer need to write and i thought that my 100 day challenge would be over on day 99, i had thought that i would have my final answer and that my journey would not need to continue.
But 100 days ago was just the beginning. 100 days ago was day 1 of the final cycle that would change my life forever, it was the begining of my miracle, and the begining of the rest of our life as a family.
100 days ago, i jumped in one last time for happiness, 100 days ago my prayers were finally answered, and my faith and hope restored.
I will never forget my 100 days of IVF, i will never forget my first 100 days in the quest to chase our little miracle, and i will never forget that when the world shouted give up, hope, love, and true friends whispered one more time.
For without that hope, without love, and without those true friends, there would have never been that one more time, and there may never have been day 100 of the final cycle to chase our little miracle.
Once you choose hope, anything's possible. Christopher Reeve
