Fifteen Weeks, two days. Day 109 in the quest to chase our little miracle
You know the feeling of uncontrollable emotions, its the feeling of frustration you get from thousands of follicle stimulating drugs – you know that feeling…
When the emotions are all messed up, when you cant control what you are feeling or the extent to what you are feeling them to. When your mind is so messed up everything is 100 times worse then it really is. When yelling your frustrations out is your only option, when crying uncontrollably is the only thing that will sort your brain out, when no in between emotion is acceptable?
You know that feeling….
It has come back, with a vengeance…
Week fifteen, and i can not in anyway control how i am feeling.
I am not sure if it is because i am working so hard and for such long hours, or if because i am just tired, or maybe i have really turned into the crazy bitch i feared i was…?
All i know is that my emotions are escaping me day in and day out, and i cant help but to say what i think, i cant help but to get angry, and i cant help but to let everything frustrate me no end…
I will try to put them back in, i have recognized that i am over emotional and i will try, but well…. It really is that feeling of not being in control.
My recipe for dealing with anger and frustration: set the kitchen timer for twenty minutes, cry, rant, and rave, and at the sound of the bell, simmer down and go about business as usual. Phyllis Diller
