Twenty-One Weeks. Four Days. Day 153 in the quest to meet our little miracle George
Half way, more than half way… How did i get so far? And how come my happiness escaped me, how come i have forgotten to share my smiles, my happiness?
Happiness escapes us…. We become so infatuated with our daily routines, with the petty ins and outs of day to day life we forget how we got here, we forget what is important.
This morning as i continued to paint the nursery, as i got paint from head to toe, as i smudged and wiped paint on everything, and pretty much made a mess of it all, i giggled… I was alone, but i kept giggeling… Happiness overcome me… I sat on the tiles, lay back looking at the ceiling, and day dreamed for a brief second just what it will be like in this room in five months time… At Christmas time, this time next year, this time in two years, this time in five years, ten years, and even more…
This is what i have been wanting to do for years now… This is what i have been waiting for… And it slightly sadended me to realise that for a few weeks now i have let my happiness escape me…
I did go through hell, but thats past now, i need to stand up and focus on the happiness i have, the happiness i share with my beautiful husband…
I need to stop this daily routine, this stress mess i am in, throw concern out the window, lay back on the tiles and think about the months to come, the years to come, and the happiness that is in store for me…. The wonderful miracle that the Lord has blessed me with…
To smile. To share my happiness with the world and smile.
Today i share my smile with you, and my miracle in the making with the world…
If you have survived IVF or IF , whether or not you have a miracle in the making, it doesnt matter… Do the same, share your smile with me…. Find your inner happiness… Because i want to know that i am not alone in my happiness, that others have found a way to live with the pain… I know that i am blessed, maybe more blessed than others and i know that not every story has its happy endings, but that doesnt mean we cant share our happiness…
After all…
Sadness shared is sadness halved… Happiness shared is happiness doubled…
