Twenty-Two Weeks. Four Days. Day 160 in the quest to meet our little miracle George
So i realised this morning that havent really thought much about the birth of my miracle… Well you know i have thought about after the birth, i have thought about having my baby at home, i have thought about up to the birth, but not actually the birth.
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know that my husband will support me no matter what i choose… But again that makes it oh so hard for me too choose and descide what i want.
And i know that there is plenty of time to think about it, and plenty of time to decide what we want, but how do i know what i want?
I know one thing i am certain of, one thing i know i dont want, i dont want photos or films… No cameras anywhere near me, are you allowed to put that on your plan?
Oh and how do you know who you want there and who you dont want there? And how do you do that without offending people, what if everyone wants to be near, when all i want is quiet?
And the medical decisions, how will i know what is right and what is wrong, how will i know what i want and what i need, what is best? Will i just know?
What did you do? The first time i mean? How did you know what was right? And when was the right time to start thinking about these things? Should i just forget about it for a few months, and come back to it, or should i be thinking and researching now? Do they tell you what to do at these classes you go to?
So many questions, it was so hard getting here, now that i am here, i am a little freaked out! Not scared, no i am happy i am freaked out, but freaked out all the same….
And then comes the questions… What happens when i do finally bring my little miracle home?
One who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; one who does not ask a question remains a fool forever. Chinese Proverb
