Twenty-Five Weeks. Five Days. Day 182 in the quest to meet our little miracle George
100 Days of IVF
150 Days of Hope
100 Days to go…
Today like many others on this journey is special. Today marks the day where there are but 1oo days left until we meet our little miracle george.
Once again i sit here in astonishment and wonder how i got so far, how one small idea has become so much to me, how one small idea could have lead to so many friends, so much support, and so much love and commitment for one small being. I sit here and wonder why not in one million years why it never even crossed my mind that i might have such struggles, why i never imagined anything but a perfect life for myself.
And that leads me to say that i truly never expected this. Three years ago when i walked down the isle to marry the man i always loved, i could have never expected to be here, to have been through what i have been through…
I never imagined that 250 days ago i would hurt from places so deep, experience pain so unfathomable it tears your heart in two, destroys everything about you, you have ever know to be you.
I never imagined that 150 days ago, when my wounds should have been healed, i would experience a type of limbo land that stole all my confidence, destroyed my hope and yet gave it back to me with so much more faith than i ever could have had, and all in a torturous 20 days.
And i never, ever imagined that today i would be sitting here with a joy in my heart so great it brings me to tears each and every time i think about 100 days from now. Never imagined that with one small kick, one single movement, a tiny being inside of me could create a feeling so strong that it runs through my veins to my heart and heals me from all the pain i went through to get to this point.
No one can anticipate what will happen over the next 100 days. I know that i will be scared, i know that it will not be easy, but i know that no matter what i have hope. I have faith and i have a love so great for and from people i know only from words that it makes me forget the past, and believe only in a future that is looked forward to with all of my heart and soul…
100 Days of IVF
150 Days of Hope
100 Days to go…
Ordinary riches can be stolen, real riches can not. In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you. Oscar Wilde
