Twenty-Six Weeks, Six days. Day 190 in the quest to meet our little miracle George, 92 days to go…
To my dearest little miracle,
Sometimes i like to wonder what i will teach you in life, sometimes i sit back and i think about all the things i want to teach you and all the things that i may think i am teaching you, but really you are learning for yourself.
I know from my past, i know from growing up, that at times i hated my father, i hated his rules, i hated the way i was treated, and i hated that i “wasnt allowed” that i couldnt do things for myself, that i always got into trouble… There were times when i just wanted to scream, and there were times when i did scream, there were many times when i just really hated being “taught” about life…
But tonight as i sit here thinking of my youth, thinking of the rules, thinking of the times i really hated what i was going through, i think back and i know that it was done from love. Without the rules, without the screaming, without the trouble, i wouldnt be who i am today, and i wouldnt have the same values i have today, and my miracle i wouldnt have the respect i now do for someone that gave me his all.
I know your father feels the same of his youth, and i know in our journey together to raise you that there will be times when you hate just me, times when you hate just your father, and times when you hate both of us just the same…
But i also know that one day you will look back on us and have respect, look back and know that everything we did we did out of pure love, and everything from 2009 until the day you leave our little nest, everything we did, we did for you.
There is also one thing that i want you to remember, that you need to know, no matter what your father and i tell you. I want you to always hold onto the fact that there is something in life that can not be taught, one thing in life that is more important than anything else, one thing that will fill you with happiness, that will break you, yet something that will make you who you are, something that will define you.
Love.
The love from you parents, the love from your siblings, the love from you family, the love from your friends, and one day the love you find in your soul mate…. That my miracle is the most important lesson in life, the most important thing you should know, the one thing you should always hold onto.
Love from a mother that will be.
Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood. Ralph Waldo Emerson
