Thirty Six Weeks. Six Days. 9 Sleeps to go…
You know how some people can just say what they feel, say what they want to say no matter who they offend… The people that stand up for themselves no matter what?
Or the people who know just how to say what needs to be said, in just the right way, at just the right time so everything goes just as it needs to go, just as they want it to go?
What about the people who say nothing, and just let it stew and stew inside until the last minute when the situation gets uncontrolable and they explode in frustration and anger?
I know that i am not the person who says anything and everything no matter who they offend, and i know i am not the person who knows how to approach a topic without offending people…. And honestly i am scared that beacuse i cant be the person who speaks out, i will be the person who explodes – and i dont want to be.
I want to take on board all the advice that i can get, i want to let people experience and appreciate my miracle as much as i do, but i am worried about it all becoming to much, and i am worried i wont be able to stand up for what i believe in and what i want.
When you are a mother, do you just know how to voice your opinion without seeming like a cranky lady?
When you are a mother, are you instantly able to put your foot down and stand up for your beliefs?
When you are a mother, are you a stronger woman then you are now?
Once again, i just feel so overwhelmed, and so scared, and i just want to feel like i am in control, not that everyone else is in control of me. I want to know in my heart that if i say this is this, or if i want what i want, that people will listen to me, respect my wishes, and understand, with out hating me, without deciding that they dont want me in their family or as their friend…
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. Friedrich Nietzsche
