Day 339 – Behind The Name Jennifer…

Day 2 in the life of my miracle…

To my dearest little miracle,

I lied.

I lied to many people when i said we were searching for just the right name for you, because we always knew what we were going to call you.

For years in my heart i secretly dreamed of the day i would have a baby girl, dreamed of the day i would be able to give a child of mine something so precious, something that means so much to me.

I know that it may take some time for you to fully understand why i wanted to give you the name i have given you, and you may never really understand why in my heart it was so right, nor why each time i look at you a tear forms in the corner of my eye.

But i want you to know that nothing else crossed my mind, and that from the second i knew i wanted children, before i met you father, before we were married, and even before we faced our struggles i knew just the name for you.

My miracle, you are named after my mother.  And just like my mother you will never really fully understand just how much i love you.

It seemed unfair that someone so perfect in my eyes should leave this earth so early, that such a precious soul to me should no longer exist… So in honor of that soul, in honor of the mother that i never really knew, and in honor of a new soul, a soul that comes from the mother i lost, that shares hopefully the best reflections of her… I give you her name.

And there is no doubt in my heart that you will carry your name with pride, love and respect, and there is no doubt in my mind that you will know that no matter what you are an individual and that your soul will be loved more than you could ever imagine.

Love from the mother that is.

Whatever they grow up to be, they are still our children, and the one most important of all the things we can give to them is unconditional love. Not a love that depends on anything at all except that they are our children. Rosaleen Dickson