Day 125 in my miracles life
The time has passed me by so quickly. I can remember my mother once telling me that i was growing up too quickly, at the time i could remember thinking to myself that time was going so slow, but as i grow older and as the days quickly pass me by i realise that when you are watching your little lady grow each day, yes the time passes us bu all to quickly.
This time last year i was going through the hardest time of my life i thought that i would be facing a life without children, i wanted the world to cave in from under me and for my existence on this earth to end. I can remember thinking that if i only knew when, then i would be able to survive the torture that if i only knew when the end was, than it would all have been ok, little did i know that a year later it would all be ok, and little did i know that a year later the worst pain in my life would be from a c-section scar.
Already a new era of my babies life has begun as yesterday she started on solid foods. When i think about it, it sometimes seems a little silly that i get so excited about something so small, but to me it means that my dreams have come true, to me each new step, each new era is a step in my life one year ago i thought would never be mine.
And yesterday, maybe a little prematurely, we began the great task of baby proofing our home, we are getting ready for our daughter to begin destroying our home – and we couldnt be more excited! We have moved tables and chairs, bought highchairs and furniture, moved books and dvd’s, hidden cables and blocked off areas… We have now become the family home, the child proof home, the home that has purpose rather than beauty as priority.
Its been one year since i was so lost and confused and yet it feels like i faced my nightmares just yesterday. It feels like i shouldnt be baby proofing my house just yet, it feels like i shouldnt be feeding her solids just yet, it feels like a new era shouldnt be upon me, but it is, it really is here, and it really is now, and i still really cant believe i faced my fears, i overcame my battles, and i cant believe i am sitting here getting ready to feed my child her second solids meal.
