Day 158 in my miracles life
I never imagined time to pass so quickly, this morning as i woke as i looked into the crib of my little one, as i starred at her beautiful sleeping face i realised that in just a week she will be six months old.
Where did it go?
I can still remember like it was yesterday the anxiousness of the waiting game i played in limbo land, i can still remember like it was yesterday the heart ache and pain i suffered through just waiting to find out if i was pregnant or not, ready to throw it all away because it was all too much. I can remember that story just like it was yesterday, and yet while it still seems so painful i got through it and while it is still so fresh in my mind i am sitting here and it has been six wonderful months with a miracle baby we never thought we would hold.
I honestly never imagined i would get this far, i could never see to this point in my life, i could never dream of the day i was sitting at my kitchen table listening to a little baby gurggle and goo in a room just metres away from me – i could never have imagined something so perfect.
Its been 158 days since i gave birth to the miracle that changed my life, and the scary part is at 158 days pregnant the little life inside of me gave me a scare, made me realise how important she was to me, and just how much i honestly dreamed of the day i could hold her in my arms.
Through all that i have been through – the infertility, the uncertainty of the pregnancy, the birth that left me with nightmares, through my sadness and self uncertainty, through all that my marriage has been through – i never imagined just looking into a cot each morning, or being woken by gooing and gaggaling, i never imagined anything to be so perfect, when i look at what i have now i know that nothing else matters…
Simply because i never imagined to be so lucky in love with the baby girl of my dreams.
