Day 182 in my miracles life
The time has come, but i dont know if i can do it….
I thought i was ready, but maybe i am not…
I have to be ready, i have to go back, but tonight, the night before i go back to work i am scared.
I am scared that my routine will go unread & that my baby will be confused, i am worried that my wishes will go unheard and the things that i want for my daughter will go unnoticed.
I know i am paranoid, and i know that one day wont hurt… But with all that i went through, with all the hurt and pain i suffered to get to this point of happiness, to get to the point of having a miracle in my arms…. Im just scared..
Scared that something will happen when i am gone, scared that i wont be the one there for my precious miracle… Just scared because i havent left her with anyone but my husband before, scared because the longest she has been away from me is but a couple of hours…
Scared because i know in my heart that i have to be able to handle it, that it has to be ok, and that no matter what the time has come where i need to go back to work and help to support this family so that we can have all we dreamed of having.
*sigh*
