Day 184 in my miracles life
To my dearest little miracle,
I missed you. I missed you more than words can ever say and i missed you more than i ever imagined i would or i could miss one little human being.
My precious baby girl, i know i tell you this much to often, and i know that by the time you understand my letter you will be sick of my words, but my beautiful i love you from so deep within it hurts. I never knew i could love someone so much, and i never knew that this sort of feeling could be possible – but it is, and nothing could make me be more happy to be alive than this feeling i have inside.
I
want you to know that each day i spend with you is precious, and i want you to know that each day i stare into your big blue eyes i dream of the future and i dream of the beautiful girl you will turn into. I dream of all the things i never had with my own mother and i dream of things greater than that, of spoiling you until you cant take it anymore, of smuggeling you until you tell me to stop, and of loving you for all eternity.
Ive said this before and ill say it again, if i held your hand too tight when we crossed the road – its because i wanted nothing more than to protect you, if i fussed over your hair too much – it is only beacuse i couldnt believe i helped create that hair, if i kissed you too much, if i hugged you too much, if i starred at you too long and if i loved you too much – it was all because i just wanted the best for you, and it was all because there is nothing else on this earth i wanted more than for your happiness, and it is all because i have seen far too much pain in my own life, felt too much pain in my own life that i never want to see you have to face.
My little miracle girl, i missed you yesterday, and i know that each day i spend away from you i will miss you just as much.
With every ounce of love that is inside of me…
Love from a mother that is and always will be.
