Day 247 in my miracles life
To my dearest little miracle,
I want to tell you a secret… I want to tell you about the lady who gave you your hair.
Two years ago, the year that was 2009, the year that i learned so very much in life, the year that made me who i am today, the year that i searched for you with all that was inside of me, the year that i thought i couldnt go on, the year that i thought i had lost my hope and faith in god, the year that changed me forever – that was the year that i found out there was someone out there who cared so much for me, for us, that they spent each night saying a prayer, believing that no matter what god would answer that prayer…
My miracle, while many people hoped for you, there was one woman who said to me that she knew you were coming, one soul that told me i just had to be patient, one soul that gave me a hug and told me that it would be ok… That woman was your great grandmother, that woman was the lady who gave you your hair.
I wish there was a way to take you back in time to meet the woman that i knew to be my grandma, i wish there was a way you could see through my eyes the wonderful memories i have of my grandmother – your great grandmother, not only of the times two years ago that she held my hand in church as i cried & told me it was ok, but of the times she took me in and let me sleep in her sofa bed when i was a teenager – when she waited for me to come home after my midnight shift just to make me drink a hot cup of milk before i went to bed, the times she took me out to lunch as a little girl only to have me say ‘i want grilled cheese sandwhiches’…
I sit here wishing that there was a way you could have meet your great grandmother in a better time, in a time when she would have been able to get to know you, hold you, been able to tell you just what a miracle you really are, in a time when you would have remembered..
But i guess my little one that is why we have memories and why i will always, always have stories to tell you of the lady who gave you your hair…
With all the love that is in my heart,
Love from a mother that is.
