Day 280 in my miracles life
Today proved to me that some people could never understand.
As i browsed through the beautiful boutique shop, as i looked over the exquisit hand stitched products falling more and more in love with each item, the shop keeper approached me and we began chatting…
As the conversation developed we found ourselves talking about IVF and the pain that some people go through, the pain the i went through, to meet their miracles, and the time that people invest on their life long dream of being a family. We spoke deeper and deeper, the conversation not ending until the seemingly lovely lady said something i couldnt handle, said something that only a woman who has never experienced such longing, such heart ache, such agony could say.
“Some woman just arnt meant to be mothers”
I couldnt breath, i think my heart stopped, but the lovely lady continued
“Just as not everyone was meant to be an astronaut, not all women are meant to be mothers – some women just arnt meant to have babies”
I couldnt take it, i couldnt hear it, i just had to get out of there, i had to leave before i let out the breath i was holding in with all my might, for if that breath came out, if my mouth opened i just know that i would have regreted the words i would have spoken to the seemingly lovely shop keeper, i would have reagreated saying words that i know this woman could not possibly comprehend, could not possibly understand in her life time.
I left the shop ( I did purchase what i was looking at) i left the seemingly lovely lady standing at the counter and as i walked onto the pavement i was heart broken, just heart broken. How could such a lovely lady believe such a horrid thing?
How could someone possibly believe that a woman doesnt deserve her own child? How could another woman say such a thing? How is it that people believe that a woman with a healthy uterus is more deserving that a woman with an unhealthy uterus? How could someone believe that? How, why, why? It breaks my heart, it truly does that people, that women can believe such a thing.
Today i realised that some people could never understand, will never understand and will never ever truly know just how much some people are willing to give to find their miracle….
And today i realised that no matter how much time passes i will never stop standing up for those women who choose to hold onto hope, to have faith and to believe that this all happens for a reason, that there is no ‘natural selection’ that God intended each and every woman to have her own – if that is what she so chooses.
Some people, they will never understand….
