The Things He Does…

October 11, 2011 0 Comments

Day 410 in my miracles life

Why am i doing this? Read it here….

  1. I think i have mentioned it before, but in our bathroom there is a little book of quotes.  This week he flipped it to the page that said… “Look in the mirror and say out loud:: I love you, I value you, and i know that there is much more to you than what i see staring back at me.  You will find yourself going beyond the physical you and removing many of your intrusive thoughts about defending yourself and attempting to prove your worth.” I know he thought about that one, because in my life right now it is true, so very very true.
  2. On saturday when i was feeling very very anxious instead of criticizing my gum chewing habit that removes the anxiety he actually suggested to help me through the rough spot that i chew… It always helps and he is learning that…
  3. This week i got so many hugs i cant even remember how many!
  4. He took time out of his saturday to come to the car shop with me and get a quote for my father
  5. He took over on sunday afternoon and let me have a nanny nap
  6. My dear husband encouraged me to take a job at a coffee shop being paid way less than my office job, because he knows ultimately it makes me happy
  7. He told me my chicken kieves were better than the store bought ones!

It has been said that we need just three things in life: Something to do, Something to look forward to And someone to love.

Filed Under: 24. The Things He Does, 30 before 30, My Miracles Life Begins, Twelve to Fifteen Months

6. Chocolate Peanut Biscuits for my Lady Lavelle

October 10, 2011 0 Comments

Now i didnt try this one personally, but from the husbands feed back and of course from the lovely Lady Lavellle this little recipe is yummy it just simply needed less cooking time so as not to be as crunchy ;) (i have adjusted the cooking time accordingly, but you may need to work with it!)

 

Stuff you’ll need

  • 1 cup butter
  • 1⁄2 cup peanut butter (i used all natural crunchy)
  • 1 1/2 cups white sugar (i might try it with brown sugar next time)
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
  • 2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 2/3 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
  • 3/4 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 500 grams dark chocolate bits
  • 250 grams peanuts

How i did it

Preheat oven to 175 degrees C and grease and line a shallow tin. In a medium bowl, cream together the butter and sugar.

Once the butter and sugar are well combined, stir in the eggs and vanilla.

Combine the flour, cocoa, baking soda and salt, stir into the creamed mixture. Finally, fold in the peanuts and choc bits.

 

Spread into the prepared pan and bake for approximately 30 minutes.  You want the middle still slightly soft so it goes more like a brownie then a biscuit slice ;)

Enjoy…

Filed Under: 2. Make 30 recipes chosen by 30 people, 30 before 30, Cooking, My Miracles Life Begins, Sweet, Twelve to Fifteen Months

Body, Mind and Soul Love

October 10, 2011 0 Comments

Day 409 in my miracles life

I failed *sigh*

I didnt make it thought the weekend without eating things i shouldnt have before bed last night.

I really hate myself this morning for it.

Where did my motivation go?

*sigh*

Why? Why cant i just feel the need not to eat sweet food?  Is it an emotional thing?  I am trying to work out this morning if my eating is connected to something…

I sat there thinking about not eating and instead of grabbing the diet jelly i grabbed a bag of dates, then i decided to bake with the dates…

I am a worry, a real worry…. And i guess today i will just have to get out there and make sure i do an extra set of push ups – but then that really doesnt make up for it, it doesnt solve the underlying issue i am trying to break does it?

*sigh*

Filed Under: 21. Work on loving my self image, 30 before 30, My Miracles Life Begins, Twelve to Fifteen Months

Why do you ask? Why do you assume? Why do you push?

October 7, 2011 0 Comments

Day 406 in my miracles life

I need to vent, so just excuse me for a minute while i jump up and down and chuck a little bit of an adult tanti…

I just want to state for the record, not that i havent stated it a bizzillion times before, but i’d just like to take a moment to put it on the record that i am NOT having anymore children.  Full Stop end of story… Do you hear me peoples?

I.AM.NOT.HAVING.ANYMORE.CHILDREN

And quite frankly i am sick of everyone assuming i will change my mind – cause i am not.

I am happy. I have my baby girl i always dreamed of, and quite frankly it is enough.  I have a beautiful step son, two beautiful nephews, one on the way, and a niece i adore like she is my own… So all my love, it is taken.

I dont want to go through what i went through again, i couldnt, i just couldnt loose myself and everything that i have worked toward getting back on track, i am nearly to hapiness, and throwing another baby in the mix of emotions that is my life – not a good idea… SO WHY DO PEOPLE ASSUME THAT I WILL HAVE ANOTHER CHILD?

Even the petrol service attendant the other day told me it was time for another one, and when i said i wasnt having another she replied with ‘sure you are’… And after so many people asking me, strangers telling me i will have another i have got to the point where i tell them i have ‘disposed’ of all our embryo’s so we cant…

Is that what it has to take for people to let you have an answer of no? Why do people ask?  Why do they assume you will change your mind, why on earth do they want to change your mind to have more than one child?  Why is it expected of me to bare more than one child after all that i have been through after all that i am going through even to this day?

I dont get it.  I just honestly dont get it.  If i said i was deciding not to eat roast beef for dinner would they tell me other wise?  If i said i wasnt going to colour my hair anymore would they argue with me?  If i decided to become a vegetarian i dont think there would be as much pressure to eat meat as there is to have another child… It is almost like it is peer pressure for mothers…

And i HATE it, i just hate it!

I am NOT going to have more children, my mind is made up and if anyone knew me, the real me, they would know that once my mind is made up – it is made up…

And anyway, who said i cant change my mind later down the track…? Why not just accept my no for a no and leave it to me.

Thank you for listening to my vent, please come again when i am in a better mood ;)

Filed Under: My Miracles Life Begins, Twelve to Fifteen Months

Conquering a Fear

October 5, 2011 0 Comments

Day 404 in my miracles life

Excuses are easy to make, we make them everyday for things we really dont want to do, we use them for a reason not to exercise, for a reason to eat bad food, for a reason not to do something that scares us… If you hadnt gathered by now i am not very self confident and there has been many many many times in my life where i have found and excuse not to do something that so many others would find so much fun.  I dont like much going to the beach or water parks, water parks especially give me the freaks because not only do you have to walk around in bathers, and not only do i have to be oh so cautious about my skin and making sure i dont get so burnt that i cant move the next day, but i also have a tiny little fear of heights -  so getting to the top of the slides – not cool.

Yesterday though, without planning it, without having the time to find the courage and prepare for it, my husband took myself, george and josh to White Water World…

Now not only was this spontaneous – something that being overly anxious and a little obsessive compulsive about routine stops me from doing, but it was dressing down in a bikini and heading up some very steep stairs to water slides that would probably scare me anyway… BUT i did it, i honestly did it!

Normally i would have made a thousand excuses not to go, i would have said there were things to do, not enough money to manage the lunch, not enough fuel to get down there, not feeling well… I easily could have said no to my husband, or let him go without me… But i didnt i said yes, and the reason i said yes? For my stepson, i said yes for him.

You see i just know that if i had said no, my husband probably wouldnt have done the drive and taken just his son, and Josh well, we thought he needed a little cheering up after a Very very long night of teething on saturday night, so after thinking about it for five minutes i said yes…

I put on my bathers (ok i tried about 3 different sets on and came up with the one i liked best) i got ready (yes yes i did wear make up – my excuse for that one? Sun protection) and packed some bags, got my daughter dressed in her gorgeous ruffle butts, and we all hoped in the car and went…

And i have to admit – i had a BLAST! Now i didnt do much swimming, but we set up our spot, i got my top off and with the encouragement of my husband we took geroge to the toddler pool and let her play, and boy oh boy did she love it! And i think because she was loving it so much i put all my self image issues out the window and i sat there, stomach rolls and everything, playing with her, watching her enjoy the sunshine and water….

And as for Josh, well he and his dad ran around the water park going down all the slides and running back to tell george and i about it… And the best part? Dont ask me how but somehow josh and my husband convinced me to go on not just one but TWO rides! I was scared out of my brain, i screamed the whole way… But i did it, i climbed up the stairs to the ride, never looking down, and i did it!

Needless to say i am very proud of myself… Cootos to me!

So last weekend i conquered a fear…  And it wasnt that bad… I think this year we will be visiting the beach and the pool a lot more ;)

Filed Under: 19. Conquer a Fear, 30 before 30, My Miracles Life Begins, Twelve to Fifteen Months

As The Weeks Go By… 58 Weeks

October 5, 2011 0 Comments

Day 404 in my miracles life

Have faith in your dreams and someday your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep believing, the dream that you wish will come true.

Filed Under: As The Weeks Go By..., My Miracles Life Begins, Twelve to Fifteen Months, Wordless Wednesday

The Things He Does….

October 4, 2011 0 Comments

Day 403 in my miracles life

Why am i doing this? Read it here….

  1. We had a family day on both saturday AND sunday thanks to my wonderful husband who not only took us to the city park for lunch but also to White Water World for a day of sunshine and swimming
  2. He saved me and george the other morning from a MASSIVE bug in the bathroom
  3. Without much complaint time and time again he gets george when she cries out in the middle of the night and i am so tired i dont wake
  4. He teaches my baby to say mum mum… Never teaching her dad dad, always mum
  5. He invited me to squash last wednesday… We didnt end up going but the thought was so lovely and surprised me in such a wonderful way
  6. He organises my car (our car, but the car i drive) to be serviced and always fixes it up
  7. He looks after the wilma puppy… Baths her feeds her… Makes sure she has taken her tablets

Love doesn’t make the world go ’round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile Franklin P. Jones

Filed Under: 24. The Things He Does, 30 before 30, My Miracles Life Begins, Twelve to Fifteen Months

The Best Favours in the WORLD!

October 4, 2011 0 Comments

So its been a long time coming, and many a people have asked me about the recipe i used, soooooo here it is!

THE best recipe for coconut ice, and the PERFECT favours gift… Cheap, pretty and you can make it to suit any colour that fits in your theme, in fact – i will be making some more for a baby shower this coming weekend! Oh and its really easy to cut and wrap up – takes no time at all!

Stuff you’ll need

  • 125g copha
  • 250g desiccated coconut
  • 500g pure icing sugar, sifted
  • 2 egg whites, lightly whisked
  • 1/2 tsp vanilla extract
  • 3 drops red liquid food colouring (or any colour of your liking)

How i did it
Line a square 20cm (base measurement) cake pan with non-stick baking paper, allowing it to overhang the sides. Melt the copha in a small saucepan over low heat. Remove from heat and set aside for 10 minutes or until cooled to room temperature.

Combine the coconut and icing sugar in a large bowl. Add the copha, egg white and vanilla extract, and stir until well combined. Divide coconut mixture in half. Press half the coconut mixture over the base of the prepared pan.

Add the red food colouring to the remaining coconut mixture and stir until well combined and evenly coloured. Spread the pink coconut mixture over the mixture in the pan and smooth the surface. Cover with plastic wrap and place in the fridge for 1 hour or until set.

Remove the coconut ice from the pan. Use a sharp knife to cut into 16 small squares to serve.

Filed Under: 27. Hold an amazing 1st party for george, 30 before 30, Cooking, My Miracles Life Begins, Sweet

Calamari Lesson…

October 3, 2011 0 Comments

Day 403 in my miracles life

Number 13 on my list, my list which is surprisingly being crossed off quicker than i thought, and with 12 months and two weeks to go i actually think this unachievable list of things to accomplish, may in fact be accomplished… But then again i dont want to count the chickens before they hatch ;)

Anywho back to 13… Number 13 is to eat calamari for my husband, made by my husband… Why you ask? Sounds a little silly that i would eat calamari for my husband, but the reality is i dont eat seafood! I eat fish – filleted fish – but not any other seafood I dont know why that is, i have just never really “liked” seafood.  So when i was putting the list together my sweet husband said that he wanted me to eat calamari… So on the list it went.

And last saturday night my lovely husband made me a stuffed calamari with salad (well i made the salad, but he made the calamari) and shortly after tucking into my calamari i realised just why i didnt “like” seafood…

Apparently my body doesnt like it, i barely made it 3/4 the way through the squid tube and to put it nicely i had to “run to the bathroom” where said calamari came back from my stomach…  I dont know what it was, i dont know if it was the smell or the texture but something about seafood, or maybe just calamari, makes me hurl… And apparently forgetting about such an intolerance doesnt change the fact that you still have it…

Funny that… Eh?

So, its been tried, its been crossed off the list, but it doesnt change that fact that i dont eat seafood… Dont think i will ever try anything but plain white fish again either!

Filed Under: 13. Eat Calamari for my husband, 30 before 30, made by my husband, My Miracles Life Begins, Twelve to Fifteen Months

Butterscotch Cupcakes… Yes Please!

October 1, 2011 0 Comments

To add to the indulgence that was my sister in laws baby shower i made butterscotch cupcakes, and my oh my were they a tasty treat to add to the collection!  Even if i do say so myself they were cooked to perfection, moist and not too heavy… Just right ;)

Stuff You’ll need

  • 375g butter, chopped, softened
  • 3 3/4 cups self-raising flour, sifted
  • 2 cups firmly packed brown sugar
  • 6 eggs
  • 1/3 cup honey
  • 1 1/2 cups milk
  • 1 1/2 cups almond meal
  • 250 grams cream cheese, room temperature
  • 250 grams butter, room temperature
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla
  • 6 cups confectioners’ sugar
  • a few drops of blue food colouring
  • sprinkles to match

How i did it

Preheat oven to 160°C/140°.  Cream butter and sugar, add eggs one by one.  Add honey, then almond meal.  Add the flour alternately with the milk.  Once all ingredients are combined beat on high for 3 minutes or until mixture is pale and thick. Pour into prepared cupcake pans or moulds (i made about 20 i believe, but then i also over filled the patty pans creating a giant mess of over flowing cupcake batter through my oven. Oh and a mess of the paper patty pans… So basically i have no idea how many this recipe makes… Oh an lesson learned – only fill the holders 3/4 of the way up!) Bake for approximately 1/2 hour (depending on your oven & how large the cupcakes are, keep a good eye on them, you dont want them over cooked) or until a skewer inserted in the centre comes out clean (cover cake with foil if over-browning during cooking). Stand cupcakes in for 10 – 15 minutes before removing from tin…. If they are in a tin. Allow to completely cool before icing.

To make the icing sift sugar and set aside. Beat cream cheese and butter on high until creamy. Add vanilla. Then, add the sugar in batches. Scrape down the sides in between each addition.  Remove and unwrap the cake from the freezer and cut in half, then ice the layers, and if you want a little more decoration, sprinkle some sprinkles on top…

Filed Under: Cooking, My Miracles Life Begins, Sweet, Twelve to Fifteen Months
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