As The Weeks Go By… 66 Weeks

Day 460 in my miracles life


Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.

The Things He Does…

Day 459 in my miracles life

Why am i doing this? Read it here….

  1. My dear sweet man helped me collect my car and drop off the rental car last wednesday afternoon, i know it may seem like something a husband should do but after a long days work i just know it was the last thing he wanted to be doing!
  2. Have a mentioned that he never complains when i eat too much peanut butter from the jar in bed?
  3. Oh and never once has he told me that my weight loss goals are insane :)
  4. He takes our little george swimming, i love watching them play and laugh together it is just so cute
  5. There is one thing he did for me a long time ago.  When i was pregnant i used to take the puppy for a walk and one morning i went for my walk and it bagan raining… It was just as far for me to turn around and walk back as it was to keep going so i kept going…. As the rain got heavier and as i got more and more soaked i noticed a car pull up toward me.  It was my dear husband.  He got out of bed hoped in the car and drove around to find me so that i didnt get sick!
  6. Over the weekend he drove me to pick up a stuffed toy that i had purchased on ebay… It was a long drive just for a toy, but he spent his saturday morning humoring me and coming with me!
  7. He took me out to dinner tonight because he knew i had a rough day.

Wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving. Kahlil Gibran

Somedays i wonder if can really overcome this…

Day 458 in my miracles life

Today is bad.  Its bad.  I feel bad.  I am losing myself again and i just dont know if i can overcome this or get through this.

I have lost the words inside of me, i have lost the motivation in my heart, i am so lost down a deep dark tunnel of self hate of self loathing i just dont know how to fix it.
How do i fix this?

How do i figure out how to overcome my past and learn to love myself.

How on earth is my daughter going to learn to love herself if her own mother cant face the world without believing she is nothing but a speck of dirt?

When will the tears dry up and when will i be whole again?

I need help.  More help than what i am getting.

I need someone to pull me aside and tell me its going to be ok…  That my mind will be healed – - it just may take time.

Fruit Cake, Carrot Cake, whatever you want to add to it cake!

So it seems that while technically i may not be medically intolerant to wheat i am beginning to think my belly has taken a stance against it! Last weekend after indulging on some granola (ok a lot of granola) a sandwich for lunch and pastry for tea i completely regretted it – and not only because i gained weight, but also because i ended up with terrible tummy aches all night!

Anywho whatever the case i decided to come up with a cake recipe that could be converted into whatever flavor you choose while still being wheat free… And this one while not sugar free IS processed sugar free – in other words i used honey instead of sugar ;) much better for you (sort of)

I made two variations this afternoon and i think that it would pretty much work no matter what flavor you were feeling like!

Stuff You’ll Need

  • 4 eggs separated
  • 1/2 cup honey
  • 1 cup coconut
  • 1 cup almond meal
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • 2 cups dried fruit of your liking (i had dates and saltanas in the pantry)
  • 3 carrots grated
  • 1 tsp all spice
  • 1 tbs honey

How I did it

Place the honey and egg whites in a bowl and beat until stiff peaks form.  Fold in coconut, almond meal, and egg yolks.  Separate in to two batches if you are making two variations, if just making one variation keep in one bowl.

Fold in the remaining ingredients depending on which variation you are making.  You could also use some chopped apples to make an apple cake.  You could add sultanas or raisins or walnuts to the carrot version… Ummm you could swirl in nut butter or soften dates, or top it with melted jam.  I guess this one will take you as far as your imagination can!

Place in a lined & greased cake tin and bake in a preheated oven at 150 deg cel for approximately 30-45 minutes depending on how large the cake tin you have used is….  Basically do the knife test and if the top is browning too much cover it ;)

YummyYumYum…. Enjoy!

Because of You…

Day 456 in my miracles life

To my dearest little miracle,

There are no words that can describe the love I have in my heart for you.

Because of you I am a changed woman.

Because of you I have learned to appreciate this life that God has given us

Because of you I work on being the best person I can be.

Because of you I now cry happy tears not sad tears.

Because of you I believe in miracles.

And because of you I stay on this earth and I love with my whole heart.

I love you in ways that just don’t seem possible.

You are a miracle in every sense of the word.

Love always and forever more
From a mother that is and always will be.

Thanks Giving…

Day 453 in my miracles life

We don’t have thanksgiving here in australia but as i am reading all the things my friends all over the world are thankful for i cant help but to think that i too am thankful for so many things this year and realised that no matter the reason behind thanksgiving and no matter where you are in the world often it is simply nice just to take a moment and think of everything in your life that you are grateful for… Take away the negative and focus on the positive, even if it is just for a moment…

THE PEOPLE I AM MOST THANKFUL FOR…

  • I am thankful for my husband.  For always being there and supporting me no matter how hard things get.
  • I am thankful for my step sister, she means the world to me and no matter what is happening in her own life she is always there for me offering a helping conversation, helping me to work through my issues
  • I am thankful for my mother in law.  No honestly i tell no lie… While in the past we have had our moments this year has been the first year i have felt more like i have a mother than ever before.  She has helped me in ways i may never be able to thank her for, simply being there for my daughter looking after her so that i can earn a little money and no matter what always being there for a chat and a coffee… Sometimes it is the simplest things like knowing how someone takes their coffee that really means the most.
  • I am thankful for my sister, for the runs that we do together, for her support and for getting out of bed at the crack of dawn simply to have a coffee with me.
  • I am thankful for my sister in laws… They help me out in ways that i may never be able to repay, and they have shown a love for my new family that i never knew existed.
  • I am thankful for my new found friend Cassie.  She may never really know just how much being able to talk to someone every morning helps me… She may never really know just how much having a person to share my passion, no matter how insane it is, with really makes a difference in my life.  When the doctor said to me to make new friends i wondered how on earth one does that, but as the months passed by and as we both got up and crazy hours of the morning a friendship formed that i hope will continue for years to come.
  • I am thankful for my father, while we have our moments while the past is still something we need so desperately to talk about i am thankful that no matter how crazy our lives get, no matter how much stress he has, he still finds the time to tell me he loves me, even if it is via email…
  • I am thankful for my personal trainer Pam.  Yes as silly as it sounds i am grateful for all that she does for me and for all the time she gives me and for everything she has helped me achieve over the past year!

THE THINGS I AM MOST GRATEFUL FOR…

  • The roof over my head
  • The job that i have and the job that my husband has
  • I am grateful that i found a nice church just 2km down the road from me
  • I am thankful for coffee, i couldnt have gotten through this year without the copious amounts of coffee i have had!
  • I am thankful that i can only think of four “things” that i am grateful for in this world, yet i can think of more than 5 people… ;)

Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it. William Arthur Ward

As The Weeks Go By… 65 Weeks

Day 452 in my miracles life


You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn’t exist anywhere except in the mind. Dale Carnegie

12. All Natural Granola

If there is one thing i remember about my father it is that when we were young he would spend about 1/2 an hour every month or so making up a combination of muesli and cereals to create the “perfect” breakfast cereal  for him….  Now at the time my sister and i thought this combination was the most disgusting thing known to man, but as i grew older i came to like it and now i myself (when i do have cereal) like to do the combo thing, i mean when there is nothing you like – make it right?

Anywho over the weekend i made some granola for my father and while he didnt ask me to make this for him i am counting it as one of my 30 before 30 anyway as i know that if he were to suggest a recipe this would in fact be something he would choose ;) oh and it was so awesome i am making it again for the next time i head down there!

All Natural Granola taken from Gifts from the Kitchen by Annie Rigg

Stuff you’ll need

  • 50g whole almonds
  • 50g pecans
  • 200g rolled oats
  • 50g pumpkin seeds
  • 25g sesame seeds
  • 50g sunflower seeds
  • 50g desicated coconut
  • 125g dates
  • 100g apricots
  • 2 tablespoons sunflower oil
  • 175g honey

How i did it

Super easy!  Preheat the oven to 180 deg cel.

Roughly chop the almonds and pecans as well as the dates and apricots.  Place them in a large bowl along with the other ingredients.  In a small saucepan slightly warm the honey and oil so that the honey is really runny but not boiling.  Pour the honey mix over the nut and fruit mix and stir so that all the ingredients are coated evenly.  Place in an oven dish and into the oven.  Cook for about 30-45 minutes or until golden, stiring every 5-10 minutes so you get an even roast.

Enjoy with yoghurt…. NomNomNOMMY!!

 

11. Cauliflower & Caramelized Onion Tart

We have just come back from an amazing weekend away at my fathers house down the coast… The sun shone the whole time and this morning i even kept up with the old long legged man and ran 6km in 32 minutes! Very chuffed with myself… And another thing i am chuffed with myself over this weekend is the tart i made for my step mothers birthday… Even though her birthday was over a month ago now!

Anywho back to the recipe.

It was actually much easier to make than i fist expected and because i could prepare all the sections a day in advance it made the perfect dish to prepare and bring down for a wonderful summers dinner.

The original recipe came from here, however i didnt use anything do do with truffles (as if i have THAT lying around in my pantry! *giggles*) and when i saw the amount of fat in mascapone cheese i fainted in the middle of the shopping isle and when i came too i decided to use low fat ricotta instead! And to be honest i would never have been able to tell the difference anyway… Oh and i got rave reviews from my stepmom and dad ;)

Stuff you’ll need

  • 1 1/4 cups flour
  • 1 tablespoon plus 2 teaspoons cornstarch
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 6 tablespoons butter, diced
  • 1 egg
  • 1 small head of cauliflower
  • 3 1/2 tablespoons olive oil
  • 1 large onion, halved lenghth wise and thinly sliced
  • 1 tablespoon Dijon mustard
  • 2 large eggs
  • 200 grams low fat ricotta cheese
  • 1/2 cup buttermilk (or milk whatever is in the fridge)
  • 1/4 teaspoon ground white or black pepper
  • Pinch of ground nutmeg
  • 1 cup grated Gruyère cheese
  • 1/3 cup Parmesan cheese

How i did it

Pretty much exactly how the recipe says…

In a large bowl, combine the flour, cornstarch and one-fourth teaspoon salt. Cut the butter in with a pastry blender, fork or two knives until it is in very tiny bits. Add one egg and mix with a fork until a dough forms. If this does not happen easily, toss it out onto a counter and knead it together. This dough is rather tough but with a little elbow grease, it does come together nicely.

On a lightly floured surface, roll the dough out to a 12-inch circle. Place the dough in a 9-inch pie plate or tart pan and press to remove any air bubbles. Crimp the edges, and refrigerate for 30 minutes.  No parbaking required.

And the pie…

Position rack in center of oven and preheat oven to 200 deg cel. Toss cauliflower with 2 tablespoons olive oil in large bowl. Spread on rimmed baking sheet, sprinkle with salt and pepper and roast 15 minutes before turning florets over and roasting until brown and tender, it took a total of 40 minutes in my oven.

Heat remaining 1 1/2 tablespoon olive oil in a heavy large skillet over medium-low heat. Add onion, sprinkle with salt and pepper and cook until onion is a deep golden brown, stirring occasionally.

Use a knife or brush to spread the bottom and sides of crust with mustard. Spread onion over crust. Arrange cauliflower over the onion. Set the tart on a rimmed baking sheet (to protect against leaks). Whisk eggs, ricotta, milk and pepper in a medium bowl. Stir in Gruyère. Pour mixture over filling in tart pan, sprinkle with Parmesan. Bake until tart is golden and center is set, about 40 minutes. Transfer to rack and cool 15 minutes before serving.

ENJOY! This was a wonderful tart enjoyed with a small side salad… I look forward to making this one again, especially the pastry!

Toddler Talk Thursday!

Day 446 in my miracles life

 

Welcome to Week 62 of Toddler Talk Thursday!

Where Family and Life in Las Vegas, Crazy about my Baybah, and My Life as a Sippy Cup Mom talk all things TODDLER!!

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Toddler Talk Thursday was created as a place for moms and dads of toddlers to come together over a weekly topic and share ideas, go-to toys, or products. It is a great way to meet other parents of toddlers. Each week the topic will be different; we invite you to link up, share your weekly Toddler Talk!!

Each week the hosts will travel around to each blog to see what topic your suggest for the following week. If we choose your topic – you will be our featured blog.

Keep the GREAT suggestions coming. We have an on-going list we will choose from each week. Some topics are ones we have done in the past – but that doesn’t mean we won’t revisit them!!

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And the end of your post – suggest a topic for next week.

Comments letting us know you are participating are always great too. If we choose your blog, we will link back to your post the following week.

This week’s topic – How do you handle temper tantrums?

Once again funny this topic should come up because guess what happened this week? I got a full blown tanti. Yup at only 15 months i had a tantrum that actually left me saying WHAT DO I DO??!?!!?

I dont think i will ever forget it either, we were in the middle of a clothes shop and i was looking around holding my lovely on my hip.  She began playing twith all the things that shw could reach streching out and pulling things off the shelves squirming and generally making it difficult to hold her.  I put her down and went to hold her hand… This worked for about a minute before she deided she didnt want to hold my hand…. And boy oh boy didnt she want to hold my hand, she let go looked at me and when i said “no hold my hand” she plonked herself stomach down and began sreaming and kicking her legs…

OMG people were looking!! I didnt know what to do!!! I picked her up put her back on my hip and went to the checkout to buy what i had been looking at… Worked this time, but who knows what will happen when she is too big to carry!

I have asked a few mothers and a nanny and i have been told that ignoring such behavior is the best bet… So next time, i shall ignore, ask if she is done and continue on… And you know – put her in a trolly not on my hip!!

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