2011 December

The Things He Does..

December 20, 2011 0 Comments

Day 484 in my miracles life

Why am i doing this? Read it here….

I have been slack… But back to it!

This week my sweet husband drove me and george into the city for our wiggles concert!
Oh and he took me george and wilma for a walk along the water – we love doing that!!
And when we were stuck in hospital he took time of work even though he was ridiculously busy and brought us some food and let me go for a little walk to stretch my legs
Oh and he came christmas shopping with us even though i know he didnt want to
Over the weekend my husband cleaned up the back yard for george and i
My sweet husband hasnt got mad at me yet for spending money on a new pram when i got the S@*#S with the old one
annnnnd even though sometimes we butt heads like no-one else in this world, i know that we both do it from love…

If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you. Winnie The Pooh

Filed Under: 24. The Things He Does, 30 before 30, My Miracles Life Begins

Our First ride in an ambulance

December 15, 2011 0 Comments

Day 479 in my miracles life

Yesterday began mostly as any other tuesday morning would, but ended far from any other tuesday i have ever experienced in my life.

I never realised that your world can stop with one little sentance. I knew in the back of my mind that she was ok, and i knew that it was all just for precaution and that when my MIL took my goerge to the hospital it was the right thing. But the second she was headed to hospital and the second that i a saw her there so helpless in my mothers in laws arms i just wished that i hadnt dropped her off that morning to go to work, i just wished that i had stayed with her and just not cared about having to open the shop i work at.

I know i had no choice, but i just wish that i could have been there for the second she started going down hill.

All is ok now and it doesnt matter and i know that i was there for the important stuff, but what began as a somewhat ordinary tuesday morning certinally tested me in new found ways.

Seeing your daughter helpless to breath, attached to feeding tubes and oxygen in one word was simply horrid. I couldnt do anything, i couldnt calm the crys and when the doctors needed her to sit still i had to hold her against her will and let them poke and prod her in ways she was just to young to understand.

The look in her eyes as i she turned to me for help and i just pinned her down tighter, the helplessness and fear in her was enough to make me cry myself.

And the evening that followed… Holding her as she cried until she couldnt breath, watching her flop on me like a rag doll with no energy, my heart broke every second of the time she wasnt herself…

I know we were in the right spot and after a good night sleep a full belly and plenty of oxygen she came back to her cheeky little self… But in the interim i realised just what she means to me.

I know it was just a virus and all along she would be ok, but i guess just seeing her so helpless and not being about to do anything for her really hit me. I love her more than life itself and i dont think i really knew that was possible until she entered my life.

Nothing else on this earth matters but her. Nothing.

Filed Under: Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins

As The Weeks Go By… 68 Weeks

December 14, 2011 0 Comments

Day 478 in my miracles life

You never truly realise how blessed you are until something happens to the ones you cherish most in this world…

Filed Under: As The Weeks Go By..., Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins, Wordless Wednesday

I can SEE! You see?

December 10, 2011 0 Comments

Day 470 in my miracles life

So i finally got around to doing something more off my 30 before 30 list

Thats right, a few weeks ago my eye sight go so bad i finally decided to get it retested… And well now that i have my new glasses i can finally see!

To be honest it really is quite amazing how much clearer the world is and how much less ‘tired’ i feel!

and as my little niece would say… Not chilli hot; s-e-x-y hot!

Filed Under: 29. Get my eyes retested, 30 before 30, Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins

WHA? Pizza minus the carbs?!

December 8, 2011 0 Comments

Is it possible? Pizza thats not so bad for you?!

Of course it is!

Stuff you’ll need

1 egg
1 tsp baking powder
1/8 cup water
1/8 cup olive oil
1/2 cup hazelnut or almond meal
1/2 cup flax meal
salt & pepper to taste

Cheese
Tomato base sauce ( i like to use the recipe as mentioned in this post)
Mushrooms (pre fried)
Chicken breast
Roasted Capsicum
Olives
Onion

How i did it

Simply place all the initial ingredient into a bowl and combine – it should form a dough like mixture. If it is too moist add more hazelnut meal and flax meal (even qty’s of each). Once the mixture forms a dough ball sprinkle some of the flax on your bench and kneed a little. Place ball of dough on some baking paper and using a rolling pin roll out to about 1mm thick. This base is better ‘thin and crispy’.

Place in a pre heated oven at about 180 deg cel for about 20 minutes making sure it doesnt brown too much.

Take it out and make the pizza as you would any other pizza…

Place back in the oven for as long as it takes for the toppings to warm and the cheese to melt. I like to place the toppings all the way to the edge of the base so that the base doesnt burn…

Once cooked – enjoy!!

Filed Under: Cooking, Everyday Foods, Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins, Wheat Free

As The Weeks Go By… 67 Weeks

December 7, 2011 0 Comments

Day 467 in my miracles life

Faith makes all things possible…. love makes all things easy.

Filed Under: As The Weeks Go By..., Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins, Wordless Wednesday

The Things He Does

December 6, 2011 0 Comments

Day 466 in my miracles life

Why am i doing this? Read it here….

I cant tell you how much it meant to me this weekend for my husband to look after my precious little girl while i was hanging out with my sister. He gave me the time i needed to sort a few things in my mind out and to have some much needed ‘me time’ and i bet he has just no idea what it really truly meant to me.
Oh and while i was out he took the washing off the line… Double as sweet
Just the way he plays with our little george makes me smile, the way he cares and loves- its just so incredibly sweet
He bathed the dog for me yesterday – i hate having to do that!
Each morning when i work he takes george out to the car, kisses her goodbyes and buckles her in for me
Oh and most of the time he is sweet enough to remind me to take my glasses – i always manage to forget to put them on, and without them.. well…
He really is just the kind of man you want as your husband and as the father of your child…. awwww, i know a whole lot of smooshie stuff… But when i think about it, i know he really does love me and for all that i have put him through i know he is a good man for always sticking by my side!

Love is like an earthquake-unpredictable, a little scary, but when the hard part is over you realize how lucky you truly are.

Filed Under: 24. The Things He Does, 30 before 30, Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins

Help Me….

December 5, 2011 0 Comments

what do you do when the tears wont stop flowing?

what do you do when you dont know who you are or what you want from this life?

what do you do when the pain of your past wont let you see the light of tomorrow?

what do you do when the only reason you are here is one little girl?

what do you do?

how do you save yourself?

Filed Under: 20. Conquer the Demons of my past, 21. Work on loving my self image, 30 before 30, Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins

The Cookies That you will just HAVE to make!

December 5, 2011 0 Comments

Ok so my wheat free baking continues and well i have had yet another success!

I guess once again just like my carrot cake, this one can be converted into whatever kind of cookie you love best of all… I used rasins in this one, but you could easliy chuck in some nuts or choc chips or even make them into jam drops if you like…

I have plans to test it using some of the jam i made and making it like a shortbread jam slice, but i guess that is another post!!

Anywho back to the recipe…

Stuff you’ll need

115 grams of nut butter
1 egg yolk
1/2 cup honey
1 cup almond meal
1 cup coconut
1/2 cup raisins

How i did it

Fairly simple really. Beat the nut butter and honey together until smooth add the yolk and beat again, add the almond meal, coconut and raisins and fold through. Roll into balls place in a preheated oven at about 180 deg cel for about 20 minutes (depending on the size of your cookies). Once baked allow to cool and eat! Obviously like any other cookies the more you bake them the crunchier they are… So if you like soft cookies – less time, if you like uber crunchy cookies – more time…

ENJOY!

Filed Under: Cooking, Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins, Sweet, Wheat Free

I have never been more in love

December 5, 2011 0 Comments

Day 465 in my miracles life

Some days i wonder what i am doing who i am or where my life is headed… I sit here and stare at the words “Chasing A Miracle” over and over again… I wonder if it is in my past now, if i can still call myself chasing a miracle…. But i guess when i look at my daughter when i really think about where i have been and who i am now and the challenges that i face now that i am a mother, i still believe every day i am still chasing miracles.

I have never ever experienced a love so deep as the love i feel for my girl. She is everything to me… EVERYTHING… and now that i have her, now that i know what it is to be a mother i guess the miracles i chase are no longer for me but for her.

Each day i want to be better for her, i want everything in my life to mean that she has a better future, i want to learn all that i can so that she grows up to be the best she can be…

Does that even make sense?

Filed Under: 20. Conquer the Demons of my past, 30 before 30, Fifteen to Eighteen Months, My Miracles Life Begins