A few weeks ago I asked my family to write down five things that they love about me. Sounds stupid I know, but I think sometimes the things that go ‘without saying’ can be forgotten and the simple reminder of them on paper can [in times of need] give you the perk up you need.
This morning as I sat down at my desk and began going through my emails I came across the five things my husband sent me, and while I know in my heart that he loves me more than any man could, as I read number one on his email I realized that he knows more about me, and cares for me more than I realise sometimes. And more than anything I realised that a lot of the time, he is right about all the little snippets of advice he gives me.
The first thing written in his email was
“You keep getting knocked down but you always keep getting up stronger than before”
And you know what? That is truer then true, and even if sometimes I don’t see it like that, and even though a lot of the time I dismiss my pain and tell myself that there are worse situations out there that I could suffer from, the honest truth is that no matter what I get back up again, and for that – I am proud of myself.
I may have emotional scars, I may some days suffer from a depression that seems endless, I may suffer from the Lupus and all that jazz, but each day I wake up, I get out of bed, I go to the gym, I eat healthy, I look after my daughter while working from home, I look after the household AND I manage to be a good wife, a great daughter, a wonderful sister and most importantly a bloody fantastic mother!
So today I am saying COOTOES to me! I am but three months off 30 and in my short life time I have KICKED BUTT!
And here are my five things as to why CHERYL MARY SCHULL IS BLOODY AWESOME::
- I have postnatal AND delayed depression PLUS anxiety, and no I do not hide in my bed all day long
- I get up at 2.30am each and every morning so that I have time to fit in a workout, shower and get in some work before my duties as a mother step in at 6am
- I work from home, which means that while I am working I am multitasking looking after George, doing the washing, keeping the house clean[ish]
- I have empathy and compassion toward others – we do not earn a lot of money, yet I still attempt to donate what I can to the less fortunate of this world
- I have written a book. Yes I have. And while it may take some time to get it published I am determined that one day, someday before I am on my death bed – said book will give others a sense of hope, that everything I went through to get to where I am today can someday inspire others to get the hell back up again – no matter how many times they are knocked down!
So there – I am awesome. I am not a self loving person, I am not ‘up myself’ I am not ‘better than anyone else on this earth, but uniquely so I AM AWESOME!
And I challenge you to write down why you are awesome, so that on those days where you do feel like curling up in a ball and hiding, on the days where you stare at the medicine cabinet and wonder if the world would miss you if you took all those pills – you can read that list and know that YOU TOO ARE AWESOME!