To my dearest little miracle,
I spent 2009 chasing you, wanting you, needing you. I feel apart, i could not go on, yet i sought you more than anything on this earth. I imagined you everywhere, my pain not stopping until somehow you were inside of me growing into who you have become today. I wanted to believe that you would come to me naturally and i wanted to believe that miracles happened, but i knew in my heart , that if you were to be ours, i would have to try again and again.
Nobody knows the pain and nobody knows the journey like those who have to face IVF. September 23rd 2009 marked 100 days left of the year. Each day of the 100 remaining days i documented my journey as i wanted to share my story with others, so that those who have never traveled this journey know just how blessed they are, and so that those who share my journey know that they are not alone on their path. And so you know that miracles happen, its just sometimes they need a helping hand.
Know that your father and i love you more than anything on this earth and no matter what happened, no matter what challenges were thrown our way, we faced the 100 days of IVF chasing a miracle searching for you.
Love always from a mother that may never be.
