Day 323 in my miracles life
The doctor told me the other day that hugs are good, that sometimes lifes’ problems can simply be solved with a hug.
I am beginning to learn the truth in this through my little girl. I sure its something that most babies do at this age, but to me it is the most magical thing in the world – my daughter has learned to cuddle. We say ‘cuddles’ and she tucks her head into your chest and squeezes so tight it melts my heart away, she cuddles and in an instant i feel like everything is ok, like nothing else matters, that she has saved me even just in that moment….
She knows its me, and she even misses me on the days we are apart, in an instant when i walk through that door i can hear her calling me, and i know, i know that i went through what i went through for this, for these moments.
When i was pregnant i swore i would be the parent who stuck to her boundarys, the parent who said no to the habit of co sleeping, the parent who didnt smoother her child – but how can you not? When you wake in the middle of the night, sad from life’s torments, when you wake from a dream where nothing is right and everything is wrong, how can you not turn to what makes you whole?
Last night i woke from a bad dream, and for the first time i did something that i never thought i would do, i went to my georges room took her from her cot back to my room, into our bed and snuggled until it was time to rise.
“Cuddles” i whispered in the dark of the night, “cuddles for mum?” and as if she knew just what i needed she snuggled tight to my chest and fell back to sleep…
Life right now may have its ups and downs, but at the end of a hard day, when i feel like the world is against me i know now there is jsut one word that will make everything better…
“Cuddles”
Ok so i couldnt get any cuddles today, that may have to be another video post, but i did get a little tanti and a lot of crawling… And lets be honest – babies are just so dam cute they cheer you up no matter what they are doing ( and because i was in a bizare mood tonight – i chipmunked my baby – yes yes i did!)





















