To my miracle

Because of You…

November 27, 2011 0 Comments

Day 456 in my miracles life

To my dearest little miracle,

There are no words that can describe the love I have in my heart for you.

Because of you I am a changed woman.

Because of you I have learned to appreciate this life that God has given us

Because of you I work on being the best person I can be.

Because of you I now cry happy tears not sad tears.

Because of you I believe in miracles.

And because of you I stay on this earth and I love with my whole heart.

I love you in ways that just don’t seem possible.

You are a miracle in every sense of the word.

Love always and forever more
From a mother that is and always will be.

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59 Weeks and i am still in awe

October 12, 2011 0 Comments

Day 411 in my miracles life

To my dearest little miracle,

As i lay in bed last night exhausted from the days events i realised that once again i havent written to you in so long. My lovely you are growing just so quickly and learning just so much i wish i could some how slow the time down just a little.

As i sit here typing you are playing on your fire truck trying to push yourself along just the way daddy showed you captivated by the tunes singing along to them as best you can. My precious little one i could sit here and watch you all day and all night, i could ignore all the chores and i could ignore the world around me and simply just stare at you learning, it is remarkable just how much you know and just how smart you already are – each day amazing your father and i with the beatiful things you have learned.

I never expected you to learn so quickly, i never really knew just how smart little babies were until you came along and showed me. You know things that sometimes i wonder if you are meant to know already, you show me a kind of love that i never knew existed and my little miracle i sometimes sit here watching you and wonder if by chance you are an old soul, someone who has come back with the knowledge of a past life….

Oh my little baby i love you so much, i love spending time with you, i love how we read together and i just love how after an afternoon at work i come to pick you up and you give me cuddles without my request. You are so precious to me and i know that the future has more happiness in it than i can ever imagine just because you are in it….

I love you more and more each day,

From the mother that is.

Filed Under: My Miracles Life Begins, To my miracle, Twelve to Fifteen Months

Day 365 in my miracles life – Its been a year now…

August 25, 2011 0 Comments

Day 365 in my miracles life

To my dearest little miracle,

How on earth did we get here, how did we get here so fast?

A year ago your father and i waited with baited breath, we tossed and we turned in our beds so excited to meet with you we couldnt sleep, we dressed in our gowns and scrubs and finally after so long, you were there with us in our arms. and the days that followed, the days that have made up the past 365, they have been everything we anticipated, everything we ever wished for… Magical, just magical.

The first time you smiled, the times we spent trying so hard for you to roll over on your own, the anticipation of your first time on all fours, the first time you crawled, your first step, the way your hair just kept growing and growing, the way you called me nan-nan instead of mum-mum… The times i took you shopping and spent all dads money, the times your father walked through that door and you screeched in happiness to see him… The times you only wanted mum, where no one but mum was good enough for you, the times you were simply just content playing with wilma and your toys while occasionally just peering up at me to check that it was all ok and God Bless my soul – the times when as you lay in our bed between your father and i in the dark of the night and simply reached out for me holding my hand as if to say “i just need to make sure your still there mum”

My lovely, my sweet potato head, my always gorgeous george, you know so well how you got here, you know just how much we desired you, and you know that i would do anything for you, anything. My precious i want you to know that when the clouds cover every ray of light, when it is stormy outside, george you are my sunshine, my hope, you are… You are why i know that the Lord above hears our prayers, you are my miracle – you are truly a miralce and i want you to know that i will love you for an eternity and more, i will love you with every beat of my heart, with everything that is inside of me, and no words, no words will ever convey the happiness you make me feel inside just for being who you are.

No matter what, my love for you is the deepest, most perfect love i have ever, ever felt, and george – you make my heart whole, you complete me, and you make me know that God is real, that miracles happen everyday.

I love you george, i honestly love you to the moon and back.

Love from a mother that is.

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Isn’t She Lovely…

August 24, 2011 0 Comments

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I sit and I ponder once again….

August 23, 2011 0 Comments

To my dearest little miracle,

A year ago today i sat in your room and i wondered, i wondered all the things you could be, i wondered and worried about being a new mum, i wondered about the year that was to come and as i sat there in my heart i couldnt believe that it was finally time to meet you.

A year later and as i sit here in your chair looking at you sleep so peacefully i still wonder all those same things….

I know who you are now, but it doesnt change the wondering… Im still wondering of all the things you could be, i am still wondering and worrying about being the perfect mum for you, im still wondering about the year that is to come, and i still sit here and in my heart i still can not believe you are real that you are finally part of our lives.

I love you more than life itself. I never imagined that such a love was possible, that with one simple smile you could melt my heart away and change me in ways i never thought possible… My dearest little miracle, i still feel like i am dreaming, that such a love couldnt be real – but it is, and i want you to know that in a year from now, in ten years from now i still think i will be sitting, staring, wondering about all the magical things, worrying about being there for you, and no matter how much time passes i know that my heart will still be amazed every time i think of you and know that you are mine….

Love from a mother that is.

Filed Under: My Miracles Life Begins, To my miracle, Twelve to Fifteen Months

A Step, by Geroge it was a step!

July 5, 2011 0 Comments

Day 314 in my miracles life

To my dearest little miracle,

It was a step! Today is the day you took your first step, and just so you know, i think i have to be the proudest happiest mum out there no matter how silly it seems.

I guess some part of me thought that first steps were a little more than just one step, i guess a little part of me had this comical idea that one day you would just get up and walk, but no matter what i thought it would be like, it didnt make it any less extraordinary, my heart overflowed with joy just as i expected it to.

If i had been at home i think i may have cried, or swept you up in joy and excitment, but situation had it that we were in the doctors office just haveing a chat about how beautiful you were, and just how quickly you were growing up, when all of a sudden you stood, balanced, and stepped…. Then plonk, back onto your bottom you fell. The doctor looked at me, i looked at her, we both looked at you and our doctor she says “her first step” and maybe i wouldnt have believed it if the doctor hadnt have said it out loud, but there you go my love…. You took your first step today, and while there may be no photo, no video, and while your dad missed out…. I have a witness and hopes that maybe tonight you will take another just for your daddy.

I love you, and each day no matter how crappy it is, you manage to make me smile, a step, a hug, a simply silly little look and you melt my heart, and make me realise that i have so much to look forward to in the months and years to come.

Love from a mother that is.

Filed Under: My Miracles Life Begins, Nine to Twelve Months, To my miracle

As The Weeks Go By… 41 Weeks

June 8, 2011 0 Comments

Day 287 in my miracles life

We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them. Albert Einstein

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As The Weeks Go By… 40 Weeks

June 1, 2011 0 Comments

Day 280 in my miracles life

To the world you may be just one person, but to me you are my world and more. Brandi Snyder

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It’s Been a While

May 27, 2011 0 Comments

Day 275 in my miracles life

To my dearest little miracle,

I realised today that its been a while since ive written you, its been a while since i have written in words just how much i love you.

To be honest my love, i cant believe how quickly the time is passing, i just cant believe that you are 9 months old and growing so quickly, the days have all melted into each other, i have blinked and i now have you my beautiful girl with all your hair, your four teeth, your crawling and all your love for your father and i.

A part of me wants you to continue growing just as fast as you are, a part of me cant wait to see the personality you are developing grow and grow, but a small part of me just wants you to stay as you are, just wants to zoom back in time to the tiny little lady you were when you were born, just appreciate the time i had with my little cuddly lady that little bit more.

My precious baby girl, each day i watch the sun rise, and each evening as it sets again i wonder what will become of us as we grow. I often wonder as i read you your stories which ones will be your favorite and which ones you will ask me to read and read over and over and over until i know them by heart. I often wonder how you will like to wear your hair, and what your favorite colour will be, i often wonder if you will continue loving your little puppy just as you love her now, i wonder if you will appreciate the sun rising as i do, and i always wonder what sports you will like to play, or what things you will like to do.

I sit here often at my little table watching you play, looking at you enjoying you toys wondering how it got to be so, thinking about just what the past two years has meant to me and your dad. I wonder how i got through it, and i often wonder if you will ever realise just how much you mean to me, or just how much i truly truly wanted you will all of my heart. I even wonder if it is fair on you for you to know just how much you capture my heart, and just how much you mean to my life.

My love, i want you to know that no matter what, no matter who you become, no matter how you like to wear your hair, or what colour you like your sweater to be, i just want you to know that i will love you unconditionally. And i want you to know that no matter how much i smother you, no matter how much i protect you, no matter how annoying it is to have a mother that squeezes you to tight when she hugs you for too long, just know that i do it because your here, because you are real, and because for so long i wanted you and now that i have you i never want to let you go.

Love from a mother that is.

Filed Under: My Miracles Life Begins, Nine to Twelve Months, To my miracle Tagged With: growing, hugs, love, personality, time

I missed you…

February 24, 2011 0 Comments

Day 184 in my miracles life

To my dearest little miracle,

I missed you. I missed you more than words can ever say and i missed you more than i ever imagined i would or i could miss one little human being.

My precious baby girl, i know i tell you this much to often, and i know that by the time you understand my letter you will be sick of my words, but my beautiful i love you from so deep within it hurts. I never knew i could love someone so much, and i never knew that this sort of feeling could be possible – but it is, and nothing could make me be more happy to be alive than this feeling i have inside.

I want you to know that each day i spend with you is precious, and i want you to know that each day i stare into your big blue eyes i dream of the future and i dream of the beautiful girl you will turn into. I dream of all the things i never had with my own mother and i dream of things greater than that, of spoiling you until you cant take it anymore, of smuggeling you until you tell me to stop, and of loving you for all eternity.

Ive said this before and ill say it again, if i held your hand too tight when we crossed the road – its because i wanted nothing more than to protect you, if i fussed over your hair too much – it is only beacuse i couldnt believe i helped create that hair, if i kissed you too much, if i hugged you too much, if i starred at you too long and if i loved you too much – it was all because i just wanted the best for you, and it was all because there is nothing else on this earth i wanted more than for your happiness, and it is all because i have seen far too much pain in my own life, felt too much pain in my own life that i never want to see you have to face.

My little miracle girl, i missed you yesterday, and i know that each day i spend away from you i will miss you just as much.

With every ounce of love that is inside of me…

Love from a mother that is and always will be.

Filed Under: My Miracles Life Begins, Six to Nine Months, To my miracle