Day 61 in my miracles life.
Its been 61 days since i have had a good nights sleep. 61 days since my world was turned up side down in the most magical way, but 61 days where i have been living on pure love and hope.
And it is finally honestly beginning to take its toll.
I am exhausted, purely and utterly exhausted…
I need a good nights sleep, and i cant help but to wonder when that will be.
Sure my husband could take a night here and there, sure i could get six hours once in a blue moon, sure i could have a nap in the afternoon…. But that is not what i need. I need my little lady to learn to sleep through the night, and i am wondering when this happens, i am wondering at what age does she no longer need to wake to feed, i need a time frame, i need to know how much longer to hold out for?
I have read the books, i am working the routines…. But still she wakes at 2.30 / 3.00 am each morning…
Is it me? Am i doing this wrong? Or am i just being impatient? Is my exhaustion taking over my reality checker?
I know she is small, i understand that she is young… But how long? How much longer will it be before i can see the light of a good nights sleep….
How much longer before the early morning screams turn into silence?
How do i approach this in the most selfless way?