Day 275 in my miracles life
To my dearest little miracle,
I realised today that its been a while since ive written you, its been a while since i have written in words just how much i love you.
To be honest my love, i cant believe how quickly the time is passing, i just cant believe that you are 9 months old and growing so quickly, the days have all melted into each other, i have blinked and i now have you my beautiful girl with all your hair, your four teeth, your crawling and all your love for your father and i.
A part of me wants you to continue growing just as fast as you are, a part of me cant wait to see the personality you are developing grow and grow, but a small part of me just wants you to stay as you are, just wants to zoom back in time to the tiny little lady you were when you were born, just appreciate the time i had with my little cuddly lady that little bit more.
My precious baby girl, each day i watch the sun rise, and each evening as it sets again i wonder what will become of us as we grow. I often wonder as i read you your stories which ones will be your favorite and which ones you will ask me to read and read over and over and over until i know them by heart. I often wonder how you will like to wear your hair, and what your favorite colour will be, i often wonder if you will continue loving your little puppy just as you love her now, i wonder if you will appreciate the sun rising as i do, and i always wonder what sports you will like to play, or what things you will like to do.
I sit here often at my little table watching you play, looking at you enjoying you toys wondering how it got to be so, thinking about just what the past two years has meant to me and your dad. I wonder how i got through it, and i often wonder if you will ever realise just how much you mean to me, or just how much i truly truly wanted you will all of my heart. I even wonder if it is fair on you for you to know just how much you capture my heart, and just how much you mean to my life.
My love, i want you to know that no matter what, no matter who you become, no matter how you like to wear your hair, or what colour you like your sweater to be, i just want you to know that i will love you unconditionally. And i want you to know that no matter how much i smother you, no matter how much i protect you, no matter how annoying it is to have a mother that squeezes you to tight when she hugs you for too long, just know that i do it because your here, because you are real, and because for so long i wanted you and now that i have you i never want to let you go.
Love from a mother that is.
